#mooshie rambles

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In the fort, he looks sad but hopeful, maybe he’ll be able to help Queenie! She’s calm, her edges has softened, she’s focused completely on him. Maybe she’ll be okay. She has to be.

But no. He couldn’t save her, he couldn’t apologize, (or at least Queenie probably didn’t understand him) She’s gone. He failed her. He lost the last person from the real world. The love of his life is not coming back. Not only that but she’s back in the light, she’s jagged, she’s scared, she’s agitated. No comforting gaze or touch from Kinger. The last thing she sees are the walls closing in on her. And he’s about to spend the next ~9 years alone.

And he doesn’t even remember her real name.

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There’s something so intriguing about Caine’s form here.

At this point I kinda expected him to turn into a disgusting, scary, monster version of himself, but I thought it would have a consistent form or something like that, But here, it’s wonky, his hat is miles away from his gums, his arms are going in all sorts of directions, sometimes unnecessarily so. He has eyebrows and eye bags like Kinger does sometimes. He’s definitely angry. But he’s also hurt and stressed.

This form really shows how disorganized and chaotic his thought process is. It’s like how I feel when I’m rejected, or overstimulated (yes I’m autistic before you say anything) in his point of veiw he did love humans but he doesn’t UNDERSTAND them.

It’s like how a lot of autistic people want to make friends but their wants and desires and struggles are different, and it hurts knowing we just don’t belong. It hurts Caine knowing they didn’t want to be here, even though they just accepted they won’t be able to leave.

Because you CANNOT deny that Caine loves humans. He still stepped out of his comfort zone to please them.

It’s like when autistic people have their way of doing things and allistic people sometimes unintentionally trample on that. or when Zooble antagonized him, they definitely didn’t mean any harm.

As scary as Caine was, he’s such a fascinating representation of autism. Or even neurodivergence as a whole.

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I love how respectful he is when it comes to touch, it seems like his “go to” for comfort but he understands that that’s not what Pomni or Ragatha need. And in Ragatha’s case he just scoots closer and moves his hand away. I love Kinger. I adore him.

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I have no mouth and I must smile

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I love Kinger’s eyes :3 People make fun of his eyes a lot and honestly so do I but like…They’re so pretty, He has beautiful puppy like eyes and I just get so lost.

AND IN THE DARK- one look and I’d feel so safe!! People are thrown off by all the red veins (I am too tbh but I dunno, doesn’t ruin him for me)

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so I might be stupid

This whole time I thought Natquik training Barnacles as a polar scout was a fan theory/speculation. No. It’s canon. Barnacles literally SAYS IT OUT LOUD.

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Okay enjoy me kinda infodumping on my selfship with Skips :))

I don’t have a specific timeline per se? But I have ideas about our dynamic and some small moments here and there :>

For example, he bought that whale jacket for me and embroidered it too :3 he saw it at a store while getting supplies and thought I’d like it. :) cause we went to the aquarium for our very first date and I talked about LOVING whales. He likes talking to me about things that remind him of me or gifting me things he sees that he knows I’ll like

I think Skips would deeply appreciate how I make him feel. Like, since Mona’s death I feel like besides bringing very dedicated to her, he kinda just didn’t want to be attached to anyone ESPECIALLY after becoming immortal, since then he’s kinda numb to death. It hurts but it’s just part of life. But thanks to me and working at the park, the smaller things stick out all the more to him

It’s my desire to offer him help and asking him to teach me to fight that he appreciates. Even if he was VERY against it at first.

I don’t have any pet names for him but he calls me “hon” or “Bon.” When He’s flirting or teasing me he calls me “sweetheart” :))

It’s kinda a calm x silly dynamic thing

I flirt with him by making a really purposefully stupid pick up line and he swings back with a better one.

We both are kinda iffy on PDA, the most we’ll do is hold hands, but in private we’re all over each other, snuggling, kissing, all that :)

Sometimes I find myself leaning against Skips’ shoulder or rubbing his fluffy arms and he just, he’s so content and happy with me here. He loves snuggling with me before bed or in the next morning he loves how small I am compared to him. Sometimes he holds me like a teddy bear!! Skips is generally nice to everyone, but he’s a big softie for me, yk? Like he’s generally patient with everyone but he’s not bothered by me one bit.

I can totally see Skips being protective of me in a way because of what happened to Mona, after whatever crazy shit that happens in the park happens hee instant of taking care of any injuries I have, wanting me to stay safe, stuff like that.

It gets to be too much at one point so I just ask him to teach me to fight and I refuse to let up because I don’t want to be weak, I want to be someone he can rely on just as much as others rely on him. He’s reluctant, but he does see it as the only other way to keep me safe.

I do rely on him sometimes but honestly my thing is that I REFUSE to ask for help. Not because I don’t want to seem weak but because I just don’t see the point.

But he (and benson) help encourage me to reach out a little more.

This ship is still very new but I’m excited to develop it :D

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In looveee <3