#more negative stuff

[affectionatealbatross]

ok well that was kinda crappy😭 its probably ME/CFS but like i was just told to pace nyself and experiment with taking breaks and to not do the exercise i have been doing which isnt fun . wanna be cool and strong and not sitting down for a break when i dont even need it.

dont know what i expected apart from it really . im not going to get better from a chronic illness but i wanted to. yk.

[icouldbemoreclever]

and i can’t even talk to anyone who used to claim to care about me. I literally can’t talk to anyone and it’s been so long since i’ve been this alone. i thought things could be good, i really did. but that’s just not something that happens. i’ve got absolutely no one.

[kerbrobro]

God, I feel like I’m the same dipshit fucking idiot I was in highschool now. Sure is cool that I’ve barely changed at all in some really shitty ways.

[opalbutterflies-blog]

And another thing, since I'm on the topic of apologizing, I'm sorry Will that I'm a horrible and shitty partner. I love you so much but I'm such a coward and I can't tell you how I feel. You'll probably never read this but yeah.

[blackdragonne]

I wish I could just take a bunch of medicine so I wouldnt be sad, but I dont have something that can be fixed with medicine unless I take a whole bottle of tylenol. I wish I had a reason for my sadness other then life sucks. but I cant hurt myself today because Im getting my hair re dyed tomorrow and its stupid but my hair is the one thing that makes me feel better about my self. idk idk idk idk idk idk idk thats how it always goes I work up the nerve to cut myself but I cant because I havent finished an episode of a show, or a drawing, or I have an appointment........ idk idk idk idk idk idk idk idk id idk idk idk idk id k  dvsnvds

[clearly-clarity]

I smile a lot at people when I talk IRL because I’m nervous and I want to appear friendly rather than as a cynical shit but I think I’m tired of pretending I actually like talking to & smiling at the person so yeah I’m done smiling at people 

[irlryanakagi]

self hatred is so hard to deal with....i mean people tell me things like im pretty and good at art. but most of the time, it's hard to believe...i only deny compliments and say youre prettier or better at art b/c that's how i feel...sometimes i feel like the most hideous person inside and out and the worst ever at art......it's horrible...

[deathcrushs]

i feel so annoying and obnoxious all the time and im so judgmental and salty towards everything and i feel like everyone i know is secretly annoyed of me and my bland personality and that they all secretly hate me and i feel like i have to force being nice and upbeat but it comes off as fake and annoying but when i act normally people think im gloomy and bland and boring to be around and i know i shouldnt feel this way but i cant help it