MOREID – written for a prompt in which Spencer gets really upset during a fight with Derek, he cries, and when Derek realizes how small he made Spencer feel, it turns to comfort. Happy reading! :)
Author: @thebeautifultimesofladybrooklynn
He hadn’t said a word to Spencer since he returned to the police station from the coroner’s office. At first, Spencer didn’t mind. He told himself not to read too far into it, but when they loaded into the SUV, Spencer became slightly worried. Derek turned the engine on and drove. He didn’t call Spencer “pretty boy” or tell him all the sorted details he was in for when they reached the hotel. He didn’t even look at Spencer. Not a single glance. And he was silent.
Spencer exhaled deeply as they arrived at the hotel, looking at Derek and waiting for some type of acknowledgment. He didn’t get it.
Derek simply turned the ignition off, opened his door, and got out. Following suit, Spencer chewed his lower lip, his hands wringing the strap of his messenger bag as he watched Derek stride into the hotel without waiting for him.
He exhaled again as he made his way to the hotel. When he entered the lobby Derek had stopped, Penelope regaling a ridiculous incident she and JJ had in the other SUV.
“Oh, there you are!” She smiled at Spencer when she saw him.
“Anyway…” She continued as the team made their way to the elevator.
When the doors opened, Derek and Spencer stood aside, allowing the ladies to enter first. Still biting his lip, Spencer looked over at Derek nervously, still praying for any indication that Derek knew he existed. Derek merely shifted his head in annoyance, his pursed lips suggesting that Spencer should drop it and get in. When the doors began to close, JJ reached her hand out to stop them.
“Um, you guys waiting for the next one or what?”
Inhaling as he shook his head, Spencer smiled over to her, “No, sorry,” as he stepped in the elevator.
When Derek walked in, he stood on the opposite side of the small enclosure, still silent, eyes fixed on the glowing numbers above the doors.
Spencer’s eyes wouldn’t leave Derek. He had grown utterly obsessed with his avoidance. His pouty lips huffed air in and out of his body as he furrowed brows sat atop curious and conceded eyes.
When they made it to their floor and the ladies exited, Derek hurried through them before Spencer, ensuring they wouldn’t repeat their previous standoff.
Spencer just watched him, studied him, hoped for any kind of answer, but even his brain couldn’t find one.
Approaching the door of the hotel room they were forced to share, Spencer shakily removed his keycard from his pocket. Licking his lips as he slid it into the handle, Spencer prayed that Derek would follow him inside. His mind convinced that Derek would just as soon sleep on the hall floor than near Spencer at this point.
As he walked toward his bed, Spencer heard the door slam so hard it shook the artwork hanging on the wall.
Turning quickly, Spencer finally locked eyes with Derek, but he wasn’t given time to appreciate the gesture.
“What the hell was that, Reid?” Derek yelled as he walked toward Spencer.
“Wha– Reid? You’re c-calling me–”
“I don’t give a damn about what I should or shouldn’t be calling you. You need to figure out what you’re trying to do here,” Derek stopped in front of him, eyeing him angrily.
“Derek, I,” Spencer’s head shifted away but his eyes stayed focused, his words leaving his throat in shakes and stutters, “I don’t kn-know what you’re talking about–”
“Oh, you don’t?” Derek interrupted harshly, “You don’t know what you did, huh?”
“How are you sorry if you don’t know what you did?” Derek’s tone was more aggressive than Spencer had ever heard it, and it forced him to start backing up slowly.
“I don’t know. I’m just, I’m sorry that I don’t know why you’re so angry with me,” Spencer’s back hit the wall of the room’s walkway.
“You didn’t think letting that cocky, obnoxious, asshole detective touch all over you was gonna make me angry?” Derek stood directly in front of him, rage radiating through his irises.
His expression, his tone, his body language, and his emotions all blended together and struck Spencer with fear. The same fear Spencer felt as a child when a bully would yell at him. The same fear that came before someone hit him. Even though he hadn’t been backed into a wall by a screaming muscled man since high school, Spencer’s shoulders began rising slightly, his body instinctively curling into itself in an effort to protect him from a beating.
“I didn’t let him,” Spencer shook as his words left him weakly, “As soon as he touched my hair, I told him not to. I t-told him not to touch me. I swear, Derek.”
Derek could hear the sniffles that adorned Spencer’s meek words. He could see his lanky frame collapse on itself. But when he saw a faint trail of tears spill from Spencer’s fearful eyes, all Derek could think about was wiping them away.
Reaching a hand up to Spencer’s cheek, Derek was surprised to see the younger man flinch.
He jerked his hand back quickly, his eyes widening. He took a step back and the sight of Spencer was sobering.
“Pretty boy,” Derek gasped softly, his features were draped in a mixture of disbelief and realization.
“I’m sorry, Derek,” Spencer sniffled. “I really d-id tell him n-ot to.”
“I know, baby,” he breathed as he approached him again, this time taking Spencer into his arms protectively. “I know. I’m sorry.”
Spencer’s chest heaved erratically as he buried his face into Derek’s chest, allowing the sobs he’d been desperately trying to hold in escape his lips.
“I’m so sorry, Spencer,” Derek stroked his hair with one hand as the other gripped him tightly, “It’s ok. It’s ok, baby.”
He could feel Spencer shaking in his arms, and the sounds of his crying broke Derek’s heart.
“Come on,” he said softly, lifting Spencer and walking him to the bed.
Lying down with him, Derek leaned his back against the bed and pulled Spencer into his arms, brushing his tears away as he placed tiny kisses to Spencer’s forehead.
“I’m so sorry, baby,” he repeated.
While his right arm was draped around Spencer’s shoulders, Derek used his left to loosen Spencer’s tie and remove it.
He shifted slightly, laying Spencer back and slowly unbuttoning his shirt.
“I just… I get so jealous sometimes,” he smiled painfully at Spencer as his hand moved to his belt.
“I never meant to yell at you like that. I… I don’t ever want you to feel afraid or anything. You know I’d never hurt you, right?” He looked up at Spencer as he untied the genius’ shoes and tossed them to the floor.
“It just, um, it brought up some m-memories,” Spencer sniffled as Derek pulled his slacks off of him.
“I need you to believe me, Spencer, that was not my intention,” Derek moved back up the bed, removing his own slacks.
“Come here,” he whispered, pulling Spencer’s back into his chest. “I love you, Spencer. I know you know that. You’re beautiful, and you’re brave, kind, and that brain of yours, it amazes me. You’re the perfect person, kid, and I get afraid of losing you.”
“Afraid of losing me?” Spencer questioned as Derek pulled the blanket on the bed over them.
“Yeah, I get jealous, and I get afraid. I don’t wanna lose you, pretty boy. Not to anyone. Not ever,” Derek nestled into Spencer’s back as he wrapped his arms around Spencer firmly.
“You’re not gonna lose me,” Spencer smiled through his sniffles. “Just maybe talk to me next time? Don’t… Don’t scare me like that. Please?”
“Baby, I can’t tell you how sorry I am. It’s never gonna happen again, ok?”
“Ok, Derek,” Spencer’s sobbing had finally calmed, and his breathing grew stable.
“I love you, Spencer,” Derek whispered as he closed his eyes.
“I know,” Spencer closed his own as he held onto Derek’s arms tightly, “I love you, too.”