Alina’s relationship with her powers, pt. 3
Now I'm wondering how much worse is Alina's loss since she had two amplifiers making her connection to her powers stronger. She wasn't robbed only of what made her herself, but another two pieces that became a part of her just as much.
Shouldn't that be THE purpose of training?
Since the powers themselves are literally a part of every Grisha, yet amplifier is optional?
Alina draws comfort from her powers during her volcra-slaughter breakdown.
She uses her powers as an excuse not to cross the Fold too many times, but she also admits they're truly in excellent condition. Her description of them overflowing with love and affection.
Alina feels sun on her skin and immediately reaches to touch the scales. They're all one now.
Sun-her Light-the amplifiers-comfort
... and yet a few chapters earlier you were so happy never to use them again.
Alina's extempore performance upon arrival to Little Palace. or What happens when you overpower unstable insecure girl with frail grip on self-control
Geez, Alina! Just get yourself a nice bracer, and look for other ways to develop your powers, than "honing the Cut".
I think even if there IS a draw between the amplifiers, this is purely mental issue. Alina hit a dead end in all her efforts, she has no one to turn to for help, so she focuses on that one thing, that would surely change everything. Getting more power became her universal solution, succumbing to pre-existing connection partly absolves her of blame for possible consequences. Sure, it's still "greed", but she's just a weak girl way in over her head, how is she to resist?
Malyen's famous poster abuser boyfriend moment and Alina's words- simple and clear. She'd NEVER give up her powers. At least that's her "selfish" independent self talking.
As long as you don't say it out loud, it's not real.
pt. 1, pt. 2, pt. 4, pt. 5, pt. 6