sadly it’s probably my current irl crush. he is practically everything i want. easy to talk to, funny, short, strong, nice, a singer, he plays tennis and most importantly he’s open and honest. i have never gotten to know so much about someone who is so interesting in such a short amount of time. for example, his dad cuts his hair because it is cheaper, so that means his dad had to learn how to cut hair. how wild is that? also his siblings and him are named after the justice league (he is specfically named after batman) how funny is that? i had a feeling that the day i met him at the bonfire i would see him again and sure i though he was cute back then but i had no idea i would come to feel this way about him. hell, i’ve even had a romantic dream abt him. thats never happened b4!! i mean, i have had dreams abt crushes b4 but they were….bad….they hurt me emotionally.. either way i think he is really cool and i hope he never finds out how i feel and that we get to stay friends for a very long time! tbh i consider him my first high school crush! i thought his family moved here this year bc i never saw his brother last year but yikes i guess i wasnt paying attention bc he was here last year!
39. i wish i had known i was a guy sooner and that my mother was going to give me faux support but not actually support me so i wouldnt have told her. i also wished i had known that the weird sophomore last year was an emotional wreck and i should have never texted back. i wish that i had known i was going to want to be more involved in things so i would have joined band, choir, theatre, art, or something. i wish that i would have known that i should pay more attention to my friends so we would be closer bc now it feels too late. most importantly i wish i had known that im allowed to fall apart and that my real friends will stick around to help me out
