#mostly sober

[alittlebitgoofy]

if anyone wanted to know how my night out went, it was great. sober winter is gonna apply for an ameture drag night and not regret saying that /s and also i low key got hatecrimed and clocked for the first time in a while then had a dysphoric meltdown but then i listened to luxx's discography and stopped dissociating and started jamming out so that's nice

[theburiedgold]

t e m p e r a n c e

it's me! slightly showing off my newest tattoo, but also showing off my happiness with myself and who i am becoming. as i've entered my 33rd year (my jesus year!) i've thought a lot about where i am and where i want to be in life. in about 6 months, i am going to be married, and the next adventure after that for me will be motherhood.

being aware of that has really made me want to get my shit together, for lack of a better phrase, lol. i've had to think: what is it i want to model to my future children? what do i want to teach them about life through the way i live mine? and so it's time for me to get in better alignment with the path my soul chose before i came to this earth. in the same way the pandemic showed me how much my corporate career was killing me and driving me to drink too much, and in the same way planning a wedding has taught me how much more i need to tend to my relationships in order to have community/a support system...contemplating motherhood has shown me the ways in which i want to truly "grow up" as a woman in order to raise children who aren't afraid to stand on their own two feet.

i've been reading "the women who run with wolves", and i can see how it's time for me to move beyond being the "too nice pleasing daughter" and grow into a woman who listens to her own intuition. i will never not see the irony of being a tarot reader who has trouble listening to her own intuition, btw. 😂

anyway, this photograph marks me seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. i've been in therapy and doing life mostly sober for a couple of months now. it's been difficult, and i've cried so often, gotten into so many deep and uncomfortable discussions, and it hasn't always felt worth it. but in the last couple days it feels like something has shifted, i'm getting the hang of it, and i'm seeing the benefits of these big life changes. i'm so happy. with myself, with my life, with my commitment to my health.

[idioticpunk]

Becoming a hard core drug addict is defiantly not one of my best accomplishments in live

[kcdahippie]

Also I really have the want to make out with somebody. Also also maybe I'll bring home someone sometime. Also also also I really wanna hook up with somebody but I have to volunteer in 5 hours. Ahahaha. I'm fucking sober, but a tired slightly not mess.

[waabi-saabi]

I should play with my gloves soon

[shroomchildren]

I'm mostly sober these days I dunno whatcha seen I only drink to sleep I only sleep to dream Away the cries and the calls I've been listenin' Put a hole in the walls I'm imprisoned in

Mostly Sober Chris Ross

[shroomchildren]

No I ain't got luck I'm just a three leaf clover I keep my feet on the narrow and the straight And I ain't too stoned to say I'm mostly sober these days

Mostly Sober Chris Ross

[shroomchildren]

Girl those eyes they be shining like a cigarette You light 'em up I breathe 'em in until theres nothing left

Chris Ross