my girl (stalker!dieter hellstrom x reader)
summary: "look at you. you're good enough to eat."; although hidden behind a myriad of love and attention, the reader starts to realise that there may be something darker motivating the attentions of her new boyfriend.
warnings: stalking, obsessiveness, toxic relationship, very obvious stockholm syndrome
a.n: requested by a lovely anonnn tysmmm hope you enjoy!!! updates will be slower now exam season is in full swing and the next person to say the words 'measure theory' around me is getting shot 🤡
At first you hadn't noticed it, the little things that gave him away. At the beginning of your relationship he'd seemed nothing but the perfect gentleman, and you supposed you were just so wrapped up in how good he made you feel, how well he took care of you, how he treated you, to notice just quite how obsessive he was.
You thought your relationship with Dieter was perfect. Only when you suggested you were going out with some friends did you begin to realise something wasn't quite right with him. It had seemed a simple enough suggestion, a meeting with some old friends from college for reunion drinks. You were just walking to the bar to meet them, a normal Saturday evening, when you happened to bump into your lover.
At this point you had only been going out with Dieter for a couple of months. Of course you liked him - perhaps even a little more than that - but usually you would've expected a little more time get to know each other before anything got more serious.
Dieter, apparently, thought otherwise.
You were just reaching into your bag to check your keys were safely tucked away when a firm hand wrapped around your arm. You were so startled you were just about to wrestle away from the grasp when you looked to its owner, seeing none other than Major Hellstrom, with a face like absolute thunder.
"Where on earth do you think you're going?" he snarled. From a little way away you could see a group of some three other officers, watching the scene with no hint of confusion.
It took you a moment to register what he'd said. You couldn't think of a possible reason for him to be angry with you: in fact you were still getting used to the fact you'd bumped into him at all.
"I'm just meeting up with some friends," you answered, though you didn't know why you had to justify yourself to him.
His grip only tightened and you could see the indents of his fingers pressing deep into your skin. For a moment you feared him, after all you'd been seeing him for such a short while you'd barely had chance to properly get to know him. This was the first time he'd exercised such force toward you, and you were so shocked you felt rooted to the ground.
"Dressed like that?" he all but spat. He gave your form a one over.
You couldn't think what was wrong with it. A simple black dress, not particularly revealing, light makeup; it was the kind of outfit you always wore to have drinks with friends, there was nothing especially of note about it. "What do you mean?"
"No, I'm not having this." Dieter shot a brief glance back to the men who stood waiting for him before beginning to drag you in the opposite direction of your travel.
You tried your best to resist, but his hand was iron-tight and the last thing you wanted was to make a scene. "Dieter, stop it," you pleaded. "You're hurting me."
Instantly his grip slackened and though he gave you a window of opportunity, you still found yourself unwilling to run. Part of you was curious now of his motives. You were more used to boyfriends forgetting your name than having such attention from someone you'd scarcely gone out with for two months. His face changed completely, and now he looked more worried than you did.
"Mein Gott, what am I doing? I'm so sorry; are you okay? Christ, you must be cold. Here," and just like that he was wrapping his officer's jacket around your shoulder. It was as if he was a whole other person, his eyes almost welling up with concern.
"Dieter, you're scaring me," you whispered, reaching up to press your hand to his cheek. His skin was warm and the contact sent a shiver down your spine, the soft peaks of moles beneath your hand, the way he brought his own hand to press a top yours.
For a moment he paused, eyes closing and relishing in the touch of your cold hand upon his skin. The image of you wearing his coat would be forever ingrained in his memory.
"I just worry about you, liebling," he sighed.
Already his voice was laced with exhaustion and you couldn't help but feel bad, perhaps even a little guilty - though why you weren't even sure why. After all, he had been the one to interrupt your plans out of nowhere, without so much as an explanation, and now suddenly you felt the need to apologise.
"I panicked, I'm sorry. Seeing you looking so beautiful, all dressed up: I was worried you were going to see someone else. And when you said you were going to see some friends, I couldn't help but think of all the men in the bar, watching you. I-" He shook his head as though he were choking up, and now you really did feel sorry.
Needless to say you didn't go to the bar that night: nor any of the following times you were invited. In fact, as your relationship with Dieter progressed, you found yourself seeing less of just about everyone. He was always encouraging you to take days off, spend long mornings in bed with him, which you found yourself accepting more and more. He treat you so well you hardly realised your whole life was starting to revolve around him. You hardly ever went anywhere without him anymore, had less and less need for your part-time job as Dieter gifted you more and more - least of all your rent.
Nevertheless, despite his quirks (as you reconciled them to be), despite this little episode, you managed to persuade yourself his obsession and possessiveness was nothing more than an extension of his love for you. You managed to find it endearing, the lengths he was willing to go for you. Above all else, your happiness was his priority - except, of course, his utmost concern seemed to be knowing your every movement.
How he was able to maintain his career, unfaltering in his professional success, whilst having an eye on you every second of the day didn't bear thinking about. There had been occasions when you'd thought someone had been tailing you, when someone had taken a little too much interest in you at work. Only for Dieter to bring up details of your day he otherwise would've had no way of knowing, topics discussed with colleagues on your lunch break no-one else could've heard.
Dieter had been insistent that you quit your waitressing job at the cafe, reassuring you he could provide for you both easily, but you liked the freedom it gave you, and after some time, you realised it was the only place you got to see people besides him. Of course you loved spending time with him, but when it came at the expense of all your other relations, then you started to worry. After all, Dieter was a military man, a major at that, and you'd already had a hint of what sort of strength he was capable of.
But you loved him. So what if he was a little obsessive? At least he cared. That was more than could be said for most men.
It all seemed to come to a head one night some months after the incident in the street. Dieter had invited you to one of his officer's galas, an extremely grand and exclusive event with some of the biggest names in the army in attendance. You were a little reticent at first, perhaps thinking it too much of a step, but he'd been insistent - and it wasn't much use trying to tell him no anyway.
You had worried Dieter would be too anxious to fratenise with his colleagues and you may end up stood by yourself the whole night, but it turned out the exact opposite was true. From the moment he picked you up, you started to think this may not have been such a good idea. He said formal, so you'd dressed formal, even though it was out of your comfort zone. The way he stood staring at you in the doorway you might as well've been stood on your head. He was wearing a more formal military garb, the likes of which you supposed were reserved specifically for such occasions, but it was still hard to gauge whether or not you were dressed appropriately.
"Too much?" you asked, though there was no time to change.
A definite shake of the head. His hands were on you instantly, settling firmly on your hips, and you ended up having to remind him there was a reason you'd got dressed up.
The whole drive there he spoke of nothing but how beautiful you looked, how good you smelled, how he couldn't wait to get his hands on you after this was done.
"Dieter," you laughed as he traced small kisses along your neck in the back of the car. "We haven't even got there and you're already excited to leave."
"Can you blame me?" he whispered against your skin. "I'm not going to be able to focus the whole night, anyway. Look at you. You're good enough to eat."
He'd almost won you around to ditching the function - though you'd never say no to the prospect of free champagne - when the car finally arrived.
As these things often were, the gala was held at a stately country house, probably just one of many. Dieter didn't even seem to notice the grandeur of the building, and whilst you spent the walk to the front door in awe that you were even allowed to be here, his eyes never left you.
A glass of champagne found its way into your hand, and for the first twenty minutes or so you were content for Dieter to just give you the lay of the land. The whole place got more extravagant every new room you entered. High ceilings, Italian marble, the quiet expensive taste of the ultra-rich.
You'd never imagined you'd get to see this side of society, you who had barely been making ends meet six months ago.
In fact, you might've been tempted to leave, had it not been for how comfortable Dieter made you feel. Any worries of abandonment vanished instantaneously. His arm was linked with yours the whole night, and after some time it became more amiss that he had yet to speak to anyone besides you.
"You know," you tried, looking down into your glass, "I don't mind if you want to go talk to some of the other officers."
Nothing. "I get enough of them at work, and besides, you're here now." He placed a soft kiss to your mouth, tasting subtly of tobacco and the final remains of black coffee. "There's no-one I'd rather speak to than you."
You tried again, beginning with a small, flattered laugh. "It might be nice to see them outside of work though. Not have to talk about such boring things."
He merely hummed, continuing to study you with a small smile. It was clear this wasn't the right approach, as he'd all but ignored your last suggestion, so you pivoted.
The one place he couldn't follow you. "I need the bathroom, I'll be right back." That seemed to pull him from his trance, his face losing its light, and for a moment you thought he was going to refuse you. Luckily, rather than argue, he pressed a small kiss to your knuckles before allowing you to slip away.
The walk to the washroom felt like an eternity, and in a house this big you weren't even sure you'd remember the way back. You spent a long time musing at the sink, making as though fixing your lipstick. You must've applied it and reapplied it ten times, trying to buy time to calm your thoughts. You wrestled with your love for him, your love of how he treated you, with your desire for freedom.
What kind of love was it if he kept you in a cage?
You left the bathroom still undecided. There were dozens of people around you, a sea of unfamiliar bodies confusing you even more. You couldn't think. You tried your hardest to retrace your steps, but you were beginning to panic, and you weren't even sure you wanted to find your way back to him.
"Are you alright?" A stranger stood before you, a young, respectable-looking man with black hair and a small scar along his jaw.
You smiled, hoping you didn't look quite as manic as you felt, but clearly some trace of disquiet must've been evident on your face. "Yes, of course I-" You shook your head, trying not to make eye contact with him. Not only were you an imposter here to begin with, but now you threatened making a scene. You had to keep it together. "I just went to the bathroom and I'm afraid I've lost my date."
Part of you screamed to tell this man of the trap you'd found yourself in, that this may be your last chance at freedom - but the thought of losing one of the only constants in your life kept your lips shut.
The soldier was perfectly agreeable and gave you a small smile. "Would you like me to help you look? Who is it that you're here with?"
You thanked God for him. Dieter's name was just on the tip of your tongue when suddenly the man before you raised his hand to his temple in salute, eyes now straying above your head. Your confusion lasted only until a familiar grip snaked firmly around your waist, the major's warm body radiating next to you.
"Is there a problem here?" he asked, the undertone of a snarl evident in his voice.
You eased into his touch almost instinctively. All previous thoughts of flight left your mind as you molded to his strong form. "I thought I'd lost you," you whispered to him in a voice you hardly recognised as your own. Dieter's anger immediately subsided as he looked down to you. Whatever the soldier had seen on your face he saw too, his hand pulling you closer to him.
"Dismissed," he muttered.
The soldier left with a small gesture of respect and you all but collapsed into his chest, inhaling the scent of his uniform like it was oxygen.
"Mein Schatz," Dieter whispered, a gentle hand coming to stroke your hair.
You looked up to him, eyes all but welling up. "Please, Dieter, let's go."
Lucky for you he'd had the car waiting outside the whole time.