i felt very stressed and exhausted by life in the beginning of the week, but i’ve slowly started getting things in order. i feel like the past couple of months have been a chaotic whirlwind, without any form of structure, which i thought was ok but i have come to terms with the fact that i do need some form of routine in order to take care of myself. i need to say no sometimes in order to function, to feel good physically and mentally. i needed to break the boundaries and forget about rules for while to realise how much they meant to me. i don’t have a schedule or a daily plan, just small goals i want to achieve every week, and i’m trying to make sure i’m getting enough sleep. i care about what i put in my body again, and i’m going to try to be sober during weekdays. i’ve already managed to sort out things that have been on my to-do list for months and i feel so relieved now that they’re done. i need to make sure i remember how i feel now, so that i make a consistent, conscious effort to take care of myself and love myself. my body is my home and my vehicle, it’s time i respected it.