I'm gonna get all sappy and shit because maybe I had some wine. And maybe.. watched a whole load of Sandra Bullock movies...
I've been really struggling with things recently. Like the past few weeks (and last three or four days especially) I've been hiding away a lot and too afraid to do anything, write or even get out of bed some days. But a couple of people keep coming back to me and have been really helping to pull me back and stopped me hiding away and getting lost in my thoughts completely and doing something stupid.
I know it looks like I'm only replying to a couple of people right now. And those two people being danchou-bitches and memos-from-heichou. But I can't stress how important these two people are to me right now.
I would without any hesitation say that these two people have saved my life. Easily. I'm honoured to be able to call them my friends and their plotting with me about the future has given me that hope and excitement to actually keep on going so we can actually do these things together.
Then a special shout out to princesashatotherescue who after meeting me a few weeks ago when she visited England with her family, still wants to know me for some strange reason. She's wonderful, kind, sweet and much stronger than she thinks she is. She deserves so much love and deserves all the best. I can't wait to see you again in person someday.
And one last thing. Thank you to mpcommander and freckledpatriot for also giving me the kick I need each day and reminding me that Sakuracon is something I can look forward to next year. I can't wait to meet you both. You're both so incredible and a cosplay inspiration. It's because of you I'm going abroad and I'm so excited for it.
Thank you. To all of you.
It's because of you all I'm getting better.
My replies to everyone else will come soon. I'm getting over this. I really am.
But it's hard. But I'm gonna keep fighting.