I literally feel like...
... if I forget one more thing or repeat myself after forgetting what I just said one more time..... I’M GOING TO CHEW MY OWN EYES OUT. I keep swapping back and forth between here and not.
Alice seems to think that the house needs to be cleaned... AND she’s swearing she never wants to eat again. It hurts that my physical appearance even triggers her eating disorder... it kind of makes me feel self-conscious
Lexy wants to take a bath and play with Remy... which isn’t a surprise... she just kind of bubbles around which I find makes me slightly at peace that she experiences life so easily and with such fluidity...
Deven and I just cannot get along lately.... he just wants to go out for a walk and not stop.... He’s very much becoming and introvert since JJ has again disappeared. It... to him is like she has died and just basically left him here to care for Lexy. Which is admirable but at the same time I worry about him and nag to much which just frustrates him worse...
I WORRY TO MUCH!!!
On the bright side.... Mr. Scary (our boyfriend outwardly) is developing a great friendship with Sky. Sky has always been a man of solitude... as far back as we can remember. Even after the creation of Alice, his sister. BUT he is actually making an outward friend and it seriously makes me so happy I could oogle on and on and on about how endearing it is. He’s even excited about The Scary’s trying for a baby now. <3 <3
This sets my mind at ease just a little.... It is just so noisy up there the past few days... I don’t know which direction I’m going.