The Scary's Quest for Conception

A jumbled mixture of thoughts, pictures, stories & personal struggles being nearly 20 and TTC.| Canadian | Leo | Sans Birth-control Sept.2014 | Birthday August 21| TTC Baby #1 | Looking to Network| IG: wannabe__momma | Not Married | Taken | Herb-Smoker | Gun Lover | Tattooed & Pierced | Body Mod Enthusiast | D.I.D I forget to mention... I have D.I.D? That too. Our system consists of One youngling named Lexy. Two males; Deven and Sky. One trans female; Jenna. And Three other lovely ladies by the names of Alice, Lessa and Starr. If you lost count, that's SEVEN of us. OH! and then there's me. Beanie! I'm the host. We've all worked super hard to get to this point of somewhat, day-to-day smooth functioning. There are always bumps in the road but we always manage to get right back on track!! :) **I follow back

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Good ol’ gender tax, as told on Snapchat.

(Note: There’s an error in math.)

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So we get paid less and have to pay more?

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lush should put coupons inside of their bath bombs

[atx-nerd-mom]

I wish I could get pregnant as easily as people on TV do.

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Reblog if

You’re Ttc Wttc Teen ttc Or just nonjudgmental in general. Need new people to follow(:

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I can't even describe to you...

How antsy we are right now. Being 11 days late for AF, we got a faint line on our hpt and we aren't sure whether it is a BFP or an evap. So we are waiting until pay day on Friday to retest. Happy happy happy & hopeful. Maybe cycle number three is the one. ❤️😍🌹

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Lord 😍🍹

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ملكة

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God all might!!! I didn't know that they made all of these!!!???!!! Omg. My obsession with Arizona drinks is insatiable ❤️❤️❤️😍

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positive energy love positive words

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oh go to hell

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Don’t look directly into them

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One job, guys. 

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The toothbrush

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Obi Wan Kenobi is my favourite elf.

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It’s literally (used correctly this time) A tooth brush…..

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10 Dads Winning at Fatherhood… LMAO!!!

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This is so many levels of cute

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My ovaries just exploded

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DADS OF THE YEAR!!!

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You are 18 fucking years old!!! Have a stable future/job before even thinking about getting kids? Wtf is wrong with youth these days

You seem to be ignorant of my situation so I’m going to give you an overview-I studied in depth for years and conducted extensive research before even thinking about TTC-Made it imperative to myself to get certified in Fetal/Childhood Development & Early Education and I am-Passed a 15 minute oral presentation on the subject in front of a panel of qualified judges unrelated to the certification-I received multiple college credits before starting my senior year of high school, I scored in the 99th percentile (near perfect) on the ASVAB military aptitude test, and I graduated top of my class with an A- average not weighted to account for advanced or honors classes-My own mother had an unintentional pregnancy at 15, then at 17, and again at 19. I have two brothers and a sister who was adopted out due to the lack of money to care for her. I am not blind to the difficulties. I know the reality. -I have known my fiance for 7 years-We live together in our own home with acres of land and a private pond in a rural area with a low crime rate and great schools-We have the support of our families and medical professionals-Both of us have health insurance-Both of us know first aid, choking care, CPR, and how to work a defibrillator should an emergency ever happen-We are extremely dedicated to each other and attend a weekly couples therapy session-He works a full time job with the possibility to work 100 hours a week if we ever need it (3am to 11pm and yes he has done it before)-He has excellent job security and 10 years of actual physical experience in his trade at just 24 years old-He is currently underpaid and supports me with no complications. He has had offers close to double his current salary within the state but he doesn’t want to move far away from his family.-Even being underpaid we drive a Cadillac Escalade as an everyday vehicle-It was our plan from the beginning for me to be a stay at home mom. If I ever needed a job so desperately I have many means of getting one that would secure me enough money for us to live comfortably-We have spent thousands of dollars in preparation for a baby. Our stockpile includes thousands of diapers, wipes, bottles and pacifiers of different brands, clothes for each gender, wash, lotion, grooming tools, toys, books etc. If our baby were to arrive today we would have what we need to give him or her a good startIf I’m supposed to feel bad for the informed decision we made as a loving couple almost two years ago - I don’t, and I’m not sorry. What I’m sorry about is your petty judgmental self along with the foul attitude that accompanies you. I’m sorry that you have infected my follower’s dashboards with negativity.I understand that at 18 my life has just begun but every adventure I go on my children are coming with me. At no point along my travels will I look at their smile or even their red tear streaked face and think I made the wrong choice. If you feel the need to so fierociously hate on a well informed, stable teenager then I can’t imagine the intensity of emotion you have towards teenagers who TTC when both them and their partner live with their parents or have no income. Just trust me, my fiance, our families, our doctors, and our friends: You’re wasting your time nonny. If a licensed doctor of medicine felt uncomfortable or unsure of my ability to sustain a healthy pregnancy and care for an infant do you think they would prescribe me fertility medication? I have been at this for 19 months. I have done more diagnostic testing and been stuck with more needles because of this than most people twice my age. I only have more invasive tests coming. This isn’t some 14 year old puppy love and baby fever. Unless you were totally stable at 18, in your own home, and driving a Cadillac around town who are you to talk? Now please kindly remove your head from your ass and have a nice day.

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👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏 does that burn hurt anon? She could probably take care of that for you! Lmaoo you go girl!

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OMG I LOVE THIS. People are so ignorant. Some times people are actually set up. It isn't age (to a certain point. Lets face it there ARE limits.) it is about maturity and preparedness. Im only nineteen going on twenty and we have to vehicles, a house that is three quarters paid off, he supports us and the plan has always been for me to be a stay at home mom until we feel our child is potty trained. If we had to, I would have a job that grosses between 1,500-2,000$ per week.

NO ONE IS EVER FULLY PREPARED, NO MATTER THE AGE!!!! I know some 30 y/os that shouldn't be aloud around infants, little lone have a baby. The best you can do in this life is try to plan and have a back up. LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS GOING TO GO ACCORDING TO PLAN SO STOP SHAMING YOUNG COUPLES IN PERFECTLY FINE POSITIONS TO HAVE CHILDREN AND DONT NEED THAT KIND OF NEGATIVITY IN THEIR LIFE. YOU DONT KNOW THEM SO STOP TRYING TO BE A PSYCHOLOGIST AND TELL THEM HOW TO THINK. STOP. RIGHT THERE.

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OMG. This. Changes. Everything.

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Reblogging for my followers who might have trouble remembering whether or not they’ve taken their medicine!

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OMG THIS WILL WORK PERFECT FOR PRENATAL VITAMINS 😍

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So hoping this is our shot! No more M/C and no more C/Ps. This is truly going to be our baby bean. ❤️❤️ I was surprised that the Ovia pregnancy app is actually really interactive and simple.

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I know you've answered this plenty of times, but I'm getting desperate and NEED a wrap... You seem so happy with yours! Where did you get it? And what's the name of it?

It’s called a Moby wrap and it is amazing! It only holds children up to 25 pounds though, so if you plan on wearing a bigger baby, you’ll need to get something different. I plan on getting some type of woven wrap when Kendrick is too big for the Moby. Mine was a baby shower gift, but I know you can get them on their website and some google searching might find a cheaper place? kangaroomamas is a blog devoted to babywearing so if I didn’t answer your question to your satisfaction or if you have more questions, they can help out! (:

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Are You Dissociating?

Dissociating is one of the most common responses to abuse and trauma. It involves feeling numb, detached or unreal and (while it happens to everyone once in a while) is experienced more frequently and severely in survivors. Dissociating people vary widely in symptoms and may experience any or all of the things from the following list.

You may be dissociating if you:

find yourself staring at one spot, not thinking anything

feel completely numb

feel like you’re not really in your body, like you’re watching yourself in a movie.

feel suddenly lightheaded or dizzy

lose the plot of the show or conversation you were focused on

feel as if you’re not quite real, like you’re in a dream

feel like you’re floating 

suddenly feel like you’re not a part of the world around you

feel detached and far away from other people, who may seem mechanical or unreal to you

are very startled when someone/something gets your attention

completely forget what you were thinking just a moment ago

suddenly cover your face or react as if you’re about to be hurt for no reason

can’t remember important information about yourself, like your age or where you live

find yourself rocking back and forth

become very focused on a small or trivial object or event

find that voices, sounds or writing seem far away and you sometimes have trouble understanding them.

feel as if you’ve just experienced a flashback (perhaps rapidly) but you can’t remember anything about it.

perceive your body as foreign or not belonging to you

(likes and reblogs always taken as support)

[snow-anne]

“suddenly cover your face or react as if you’re about to be hurt for no reason”

Oh thank gosh I thought I was the only one!! Always been embarassed when it happens, but now at least I know it’s normal. Bless this post <3