“So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday.”
I'm going on tour soon, and while I know you'll be flying around the U.S as often as you can to see me, it's going to be really hard for us to be away from each other. Lately we've spent a lot of our time curled up, whispering about how much we'll miss each other while I'm away, and I just wanted to let you know that my heart is going to be so lost without you with me this entire time. It's going to be hard, and not to mention weird and lonely and sad having to wake up and not see your dumb face and kiss your lips and it's going to be ridiculous that I'll have to wear socks to bed because I won't have your legs to press my cold toes against.
Everyday that I've known you has been a blessing. Everyday that I've been able to call you mine have been the best days of my life. I absolutely adore you, Dean Amias Camden. I adore your stupid laugh and the way your nose scrunches up when you smile really big. I adore the way you sing me to sleep when I can't for the life of me fall asleep any other way. I especially adore the way you love me. I'm going to miss you so so so much. At least the sex when we see each other again will be even more fantastic than it is now.
“Oh no. Don't smile. You'll kill me. I stop breathing when you smile.”