why is my heart the kind of one that always ends up wanting to try and help out as many people as possible.
i don’t blame hyuck. feelings for people come at the wrong time. i?? honestly think i might be in the same kind of situation right now, so it’s.. understandable. i just don’t want him to hate himself for something that you can’t help. i mean, the only thing that’s really going to be difficult is how awkward he’s probably made it. i could kind of feel it at the show earlier, but i’m glad all of them kind of kept it to themselves. i don’t think it’s going to go as bad as all of them think it’s going to go, but honestly? i think he needs to just.. make his mind up. (great advice mark, maybe learn to take it yourself)
gahyeon being upset really rattled me for some reason. i don’t normally like seeing her as upset as she was yesterday, but for some reason -- it really fucked with me. gahyeon is literally like the other half of me at this point. someone i want to help out with no matter what, but it hurt her. she wasn’t upset about what happened. she was okay with that. we have the same kind of outlook on these things. she was just more upset about how she felt like he was going to have to choose. i think i managed to calm her down. we sat and had a tub of ice cream and had that.. deep heart to heart talk about how i’d support her no matter what, and we both had that tiny little cry again. i don’t.. think i actually made things better giving her his shirt, but.. if it gives her some kind of comfort then we’re okay.
and taeil... i don’t know. i wanted to check up on him, but i feel like i’d probably just get my head snapped off if i try, but... i just wanna make sure he’s doing okay too.
god, if anything, i’m super thankful for jungkook. just to get out and enjoy the company of someone i like talking to. it’s nice to have someone who doesn’t really care or want all the bullshit that comes with the dumb drama i’m surrounded with.