He gave birth to me. This body is full of blood and bones. Today, I’ll return them all.
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He gave birth to me. This body is full of blood and bones. Today, I’ll return them all.
“Mu Ze, in fact, we are the same. From beginning to end, we love ourselves the most. But you and I are different. At least I’m willing to face my own desires. You? You obviously love her, but you torture her and suspect her. Admit it. In front of her, you feel inferior like a dog.”
“You’re talking nonsense!”
“Do you know why women can detect when men change their minds? People have two eyes. But they can only look at one place. In your eyes, Lu Anran is the only one.”
Lost Track of Time (2022)
In order to test me, Consort Liang asked me to give the glass of poison to my mother...My mother didn’t want my hands to be blotted with her blood. But it was me who killed her in the end.
“Why do you have to marry me?”
“Because I hate you. All the way here, you rack your brain to kill my right-hand men. You almost made it. I want to use the means you hate the most to get back at you. To torture you.”
Lost Track of Time (2022)
it’s about how mu ze is suspicious of her and wouldn’t hesitate to kill her if she ruined his plans yet also in his weakest moment he wants a rest on her shoulder. he wants her but is ready to kill her. to be king is a terrifying thing.
It's about!! How!! In this second life!! He DID NOT kill 9th brother!! And he DID desperately want her love!! And that yes he was awful and ruthless and murderous--similar to his first life--but also he's also a tiny bit different!!
And that makes me weep about it: What has and hasn't changed between the first and second lives, how in the first life he was ungrateful and arrogant and took her and 9th brother for granted; in the second life, he did not harm them in his final moment.
oh, mu ze, you're way too damaged to ever trust her and you know that she knows. You're desperate and controlling and you can never trust her. You can never trust anyone
the broken brotherhood between mu chuan and mu ze tho. It's so much to think about. mu ze grabbing the arrow that almost killed mu chuan, mu chuan cutting his cloth and throwing it to mu ze, mu ze cutting his hand trying to carve the bird he made before for mu chuan, mu chuan holding onto the broken wooden bird, mu chuan being mute for so long and his first words were "don't hurt 2nd brother" and I am not okay--