#much needed break

[pose4photoml]

Finally my Girls Weekend is here!! Road trip to MD here’s hoping traffic isn’t too bad.

[austinbutlermischief]

Hopping on to say No I am not going to stop making Austin gifs or other fandom gifs, but I think I will be taking a little break. I have been going non stop for 2 years and I kind of need a break. Just feeling a little burnt out. I will still be posting here and there, but for the time being I think I need a little me time. I promise though I won't fully disappear on everyone.

[navybrat817]

Guess who is taking a week off next month?

I'm not going anywhere, but this is a big deal for me. 😂 A week with no work worries? Yes, please. ❤️

[bamtese]

Are you gonna post about Dream after ?

of course!! it just feels really bad for me rn and theres something else that makes me feel better so i wanna focus on that for my mental health. i need to get rid of all the negativity before stepping back in<3

[isilrina]

Heyo! It's Monday again.

Just wanted to pop in and let you know that I've been enjoying some much-needed rest and quality time with my family in the beautiful south of France, just as planned. 🇫🇷

Today, we visited the stunning Fontaine-de-Vaucluse, and my husband snapped some lovely pictures for me to share with you all (more on my Insta) 📸✨

See you around! 👋😊

[apieceofpisces]

going back to the city after a short holiday break

[notanastrologer]

Ok taking a break now, did a lot of asks today !

[lola-from-the410]

An Explanation

Hi tumblr friends, I’ve received several messages asking if I’m ok since I haven’t been posting on here and I just wanted to check in and say I’m fine and explain why I had to take a break from my blog.

A few months ago, I recieved a very hateful message from another blog. It was all the usual stuf “you’re junkie, you’re trash, I hope you od and die”. Now I admit I am partially at fault for enaging with this person, but I happened to notice their bio stated they were all about kindness to everyone and a “mental health advocate.” I replied and pointed out the hypocrisy, basically just saying “your actions aren’t really matching up to what you claim in your bio.” They proceeded to make a post about me on their blog, and very clearly hadn’t done anything more than quickly glance at my page, as several things they said about me, I have actually posted saying the opposite. Their followers started replying some pretty awful things to that post and I began receiving even more hateful messages. Eventually I just deleted the tumblr app off my phone, as being told I’m scum who doesn’t deserve to live multiple times a day started to really mess with me.

This blog has been a place for me to express and share things I can’t in my “real” life, a place to process, an outlet, almost like a journal of sorts. I guess you could call it a coping mechanism. It was a place I could connect with others who shared similar struggles and understood me in a way others in my life can’t. Addiction is an extremely lonely and isolating disease, and our little community on here made me feel less alone. After this incident, as cheesy as it sounds, I no longer felt my blog was a safe space. I didn’t feel I could be open and something that I had previously loved and enjoyed caused me great anxiety. That it happened during a time of isolation for not just addicts, but everyone, made it hurt even more.

Sorry this is so long, I just wanted to give an explanation and apologize, as I know it can be worrying when a known drug user suddenly disappears and stops posting. Like I said, I love this little corner of the internet, “drugblr” (😂) is where I found my people and it helped me through some of the darkest times of my life. I don’t want to leave, and I find myself missing it more and more each day, so I’m sure I will be back soon. In the meantime I just wanted to assure everyone that I’m still alive and well (pun intended 😉)

xoxoxo