I saw your rant the other day, I may not know the whole story and I don't know if this would even matter however know that people out there feels the same way and is in relate with what you feel and I for one understands everything. It is damn confusing not knowing what to feel anymore, what to think, what to do, thinking everything is in the past that everything already happened and we are apparently left with no choice but swallow everything that we have became the casualties of their craving and wars for freedom and love. We are left with no choice but to live with it, mine happened 12 years ago at the age of 6 I saw how two people who once loved each other so much suddenly cannot stand each other's presence it is difficult to understand, to try to understand and to accept that in a snap the dream became a nightmare but nevertheless I learned to accept the apologies that I was never given, that in such a big scale I was taken for granted and is deprive to decide. This is getting confusing but my point is I know it is difficult, that it still hurts, that it is confusing but we simply learn to accept that despite this life being made up of choices, the ones which changes and affects us most is not in our hands. Stay strong ate! We might not be close at all or anything but know that people cares! Sending you virtual hugs and love!