Leader was quiet as Youngest helped him with his standard attire, redoing his tie and fixing Leader's hair. As she finished, Youngest finally let her eyes glance at Leader's face, immediately regretting it.
There were black bags under Leader's bloodshot red eyes and the dark bruise on his cheek didn't really help his appearance. He hadn't spoken at all since Youngest woke him for the ceremony, stumbling into the common room with his unironed attire and bed hair.
She could imagine what Right-Hand would have said, clicking her tongue as she reminded Leader that a grown man should know how to iron his own shirt. Teammate would have snickered and grabbed his own hair gel to help Leader's hair situation. He'd purposely take too long just to annoy Leader, straightening every strand neatly on the top of Leader's head and flush against his temples. Medic would have quipped about Leader not wearing his ankle brace, telling him that if he dislocated it again, he'd drive home without Leader and have him limp all the home way home himself.
But none of them were here.
They were waiting for Youngest and Leader at the ceremony. In caskets waiting to be buried.
"I-I can't do this, Youngest," rasped Leader, his voice sounding extremely raw and lifeless.
Youngest gently cupped Leader's face, feeling the stubble that had grown from not shaving that week. She tilted his face up to look at her, running a thumb gently across the butterfly bandages that held his cheek together.
"Just for a few hours, Leader, then you can rest," Youngest had never used Leader's name before this, but she needed him to listen.
"We shouldn't have to do this. They shouldn't have-they shouldn't have died,"
"Leader-"
"I was so close, Youngest. I could have-I should have saved them!"
"But you didn't, Leader. And they're already gone," she snapped, just as tired as Leader was.
Leader's gaze faltered, shaking as he surpressed another round of tears. But Youngest had had enough. She grabbed his face roughly this time, making sure he looked straight at her.
"You failed this time Leader, but you've still got another team under you. Another team that needs you. Send off our friends, and put yourself back together, understand? You are a Captain, so you need to act like one,"
Youngest let Leader go, passing him a glass of water.
"Wash your face, no more crying. We're leaving in five minutes, Leader,"
"Okay,"
"Good. Take too long and I'll drag you out,"














