I am now stuck being legally blind.
This month has been incredibly rough, and next month is gonna get tougher as me and my mom are trying to double down and work harder in finding a more affordable place to live in.
But, things just seem like its getting worse and worse for me.
I had a few good job interviews for clerk and retail positions, but I haven’t heard back from any of them.
And now, these past two days, I’ve gotten another really bad obstacle.;
It’s harder for me to see.
I have Keratoconis, which is when a person’s eye and cornea becomes cone and loppy shaped due to weakened fibers. A few years ago, in a different account, I had a tremendous support from generous donations from tumbler users, that helped me pay for the surgery needed to try to correct the problem. Now, I rely on hard contact lenses in order properly see, and cannot use glasses or soft lenses, since the hard lenses force my cornea to be in the right shape needed to not distort the light.
However, recently, my left lense has become damanged and too uncomfortable to use anymore.
This is a very bad problem because my left eye is my good eye, and my right eye is so damaged that even after the surgery, doctors don’t think it will ever see 100% clearly. So, I depend more on that left eye than I do on my right eye, and now, it’s pretty much out of commission.
Without my left eye lense, I cannot drive. I cannot draw. I can’t even leave the house. And, since I am currently under unemployment, I literally cannot afford to buy a new pair. Hell, I’m not even insured anymore, and the specialist that I need to go to, will most likely not be covered by most low income, or free insurances in california.
A single pair of hard lenses can go from 300-500 depending on their prescription and I still need to be checked to see if there was any changes on them at all. I can’t even afford to have my eyes just checked up.;;;
I’m just... feeling like life is throwing obstacle after obstacle after obstacle at me. And, when I do find a solution, something else happens to get in the way of it as well.
I’m really starting to lose my optimism and hope.
