#mur.v

[mramur]

only reminded abt the country's independence day bcs i need to check the date for how many days left till my bread expired.

[mramur]

[mramur]

whenever i think how late i am towards caring abt my own country issues, i remember this type of people exist and i am at peace.

[mramur]

💭

It's hard to want to self diagnosing yourself bcs eventhough i shared some of these symptoms ive read, idk if theyre solid enought to get an actual diagnosis. I identify with adhd a lot but then again i dont know if thats just a learned habit, something happen due to gadget addiction, actual laziness which i mask as something else, or that adhd isnt real bcs everybody struggle the same.

everytime i talk to any friend they told me they feel that way too, yet i keep hearing how they were able to endure it. And then how i read a lot of people who feels the same online. maybe its already a normal thing to feel that way? or maybe i am normal to feel that way and the real adhd isnt what i think i am.

I hate how i always feel partial to all the symptoms ive read, "oh i did experience A but i dont think ive experienced B? then is that makes me unqualified for this? Oh i did experience C but i dont remember if its happen long enough to call it a symptom. Oh i did experience D but only under certain situation and not every time, then that means i know what the source is so maybe its not a symptom but just a me-problem?"

I just want to have a label, i want to know that its not my fault 100% that i was this way. I want to be given the right solutions to keep these things at bay. I want to stop feeling pathetic all the time.