John Lotter Letter (Oct. 9th 2018)
Dear Kailey,
Hey! Thank you for sending me the lyrics of mold by infected rain. I really appreciate you doing that for me. If I ever want some other lyrics to songs in the future would you be willing to send them to me?
I'm so sorry to read you were raped by your sick Grandpa at 4 years old, by a stranger at 17 years old. It's not a surprise after reading about your rapes that you have lots of depression, Suicidal Tendencies, and are a sex addict. It's widely known a person who is subjected to sexual assault at a young age is more likely to experience depression, Suicidal Tendencies, sexual identity issues, self-hate issues, and sexual addiction. Have you ever sought professional help to help deal with your issues? I hope so... I would hate to hear you did something to yourself.
I see you have a question, or two, or three for me to answer. Let me answer them for you. I do write others. I have a bout 30 to 40 people I went to on a given day. I have a few of them on the JPay services set up for the prison for us to be able to email friends and family. No, I don't do yoga. I would do it if I was free and could get a good teacher. I broke my ankle sipping on water in the ice room. I was wearing my shower shoes which became dangerously slippery when wet. It was just a freak accident I don't believe in ghosts or spirits. I just asked that question as a tool to get to know the person I'm writing to. If I get out I would like to start a production company. I'm a big fan of movies and documentaries, and would like to be a part of making them myself. I will try and paint you something in a few days it might take awhile though. I have a few questions for you. What do you mean when you say your sex addiction is terrible when you have no boyfriend? Does that mean you are having sex with random strangers, or does that mean you're going crazy without a boyfriend to have sex with? What kind of questions would be off limits? Do you have a phone? How did your birthday go? Did you have a few beers and some fun with your friends at the bar? I hope so... Do you think before you speak or blurt things out? What are your most common expressions? Do you ever try to shock people? What are you criticized for most? What are your swear words? Did you play any sports in school? If so, what?
You're welcome... I wish I had a better picture to send you. That picture was of me and my two brothers from Mississippi Stephen and Michael. Thank you for the compliment about my eyes.
I haven't been up to much since I last wrote to you I just been watching TV and writing mostly. I watched Better Call Saul, Lodge 49, the gifted, The Purge, Mayons, Mr. Inbetween, American Horror Story, and The Walking Dead through the week and weekend for TV. The movies I watched were solo, Deadpool, Hotel Transylvania, Hotel Transylvania 2, and Keanu. I also watched some old movies on TCM, and they were Blume in love, California split, scarecrow, and Pavline at the beach.
I better close. I hope to hear back from you very soon.
With love,
John L. Lotter
