WHAT'S YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CASS LIKE
my relationship spans over a decade, she was all i’ve known of real pure unadulterated love. it still fucking blows my mind that i haggled my middle school crush into agreeing to marry me. i still remember the first time i saw her, which is beyond cheesy but it’s true. it was a lot like getting punched in the fucking face, windless, legs shaking, ears ringing, but god, in the best fucking way. it was like every butterfly i’ve every felt swarming back to haunt me, to warn me. i was bad at expressing myself then, i mean, i still am so i didn’t think i stood a chance. i didn’t even bother, cass was always too good for me. it was just years of bad jokes and shooting each other smiles in class, cass being to polite to point out of blatantly i’d stare during every fucking soft line of shakespeare. i wasn’t aware of how out of focus the rest of the world was compared to her. i wasn’t ready to acknowledge that, i guess. i was a kid, a moron. but can you blame me? it’s hard to keep let your eyes linger on anything when there’s a living breathing angel in your vicinity.
loving cass has been as easy as breathing, really. anyone who’s met her knows this. there’s something about her that just… radiates sunshine, and you can feel her warmth on even the cloudiest days, when the air’s gelid and icy. cass has a way of melting the misery right from the darkest part of your hearts in the smallest gestures, collecting the broken bits of each of us and piecing us back together. sometimes i don’t know how she’s real, and wasn’t peeled right out of a fucking disney movie. a real life princess, my real life princess.
cass is… my best friend. it’s like having a best friend who you can make out with. i mean, i did that once with blue too, but unfortunately the world wasn’t ready for our raw power and we moved on but that’s besides the point… there’s a comfort in getting to sleep next to your best friend, to tie your life to theirs. there’s a comfort get to share every aspect of a relationship with someone who is your friend. i don’t know how i got so lucky, but i did by some fucking grace of the gods. i would do anything for her.