#mushy garbage

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

“News of my death has been greatly exaggerated.”

“The Return of the King”

“I don’t even know who you are”

I am back after a long hiatus for the foreseeable future I suspect. Please be patient with me as I catch up. Feel free to DM me again as I have many messages to reply to!

About (April 2026 Update)

Late 20s, 456lbs, 6’2, INFJ, Cancer, he/him, single

Welcome to my blog! Here you will find body worship, feedism, BDSM, D/S, domination/caretaking, masochism/sadism, and general kinky lifestyle blogging by yours truly. I usually take a dominant feedee/feeder role but I’ve been known to switch or be exclusive to one role on occasion.

I blog about my experiences, write short form kinky posts, and reblog whatever dumb/cutesy/romantic/aesthetic/cool/meme stuff I decide, as it is my blog.

Please feel free to DM, ask, or comment any questions or undying love, as I do quite enjoy those.

By ravenousrampage

[literal-ghost]

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Today’s mine and Dustin’s anniversary.

He’s been nothing but absolutely lovely to me and I remember how scared I was that things would go wrong, or it would end up being a fascination and we would actually not have all that much in common, or I would flake out and let things fall to bits at the beginning.

But it’s been a year and I still adore him just as much then as I do now, and fuck, even more than then. And he’s given me a lot of motivation to pull through stuff I probably would have self-destructed worse on since we started getting closer.

Honestly, the only thing remotely close to a problem we’ve had this whole time is that we’re both broke fuckers and the distance really sucks.

I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve having this big, sweet butt in my life, but it must’ve been something really good.

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

I think to know someone’s schedules, habits, and routines is very romantic

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I think my most silly fantasy is I run companion kink blogs with someone. It sounds so silly but I’m talking we post pictures / gifs of each other, write complimentary text posts, really create like a collaborative little project we both contribute to, have a cohesive vibe…but obviously it’s individual as well. I want following both of us to be a complete package, two sides of the same journey. It’s kinda romantic, kinda silly, kinda dumb, but I think it would be so sweet, and honestly so romantic to just write and write about someone and tell everyone how much I love / am inspired by / enraptured to this person. I want my love and admiration to be loud, public, and detailed. I want everyone to know. I think tumblr has a unique realm in that regard in relation to social media

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

I love taking photos of things so much. I love bodies and faces and seeing them in places, and lighting, and all that. I really want to have a really long term (or lifetime partner) who wants me to catalogue them. I want thousands of photos of her. Hundreds of prints of her, the things she loves, us, our pets. I want a muse and I want to study her for my whole life. People are so beautiful. They deserve to be seen and documented and watched and observed and kept memories of.

I want to do that for someone. I want to keep track of changes. Hair, nails, clothes, weight fluctuations, wrinkles…I love all of them and how they change. Everyday I want to take photos of her. I want to fill shelves with our favorites in albums and and walls with prints. I want a space dedicated to us, and her. Just as she is, as she changes, in those moments we call life.

I want to keep someone, and maintain them, and help them be whatever they want, and I want to make sure we capture all the stages.

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

Am I in the frame from your point of view?

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

let’s just say that if crying and listening to music and coming to big personal conclusions in the deep of night was an Olympic sport, I’d have a solid gold medal

[paddlescuddlesbubblesgurgles]

really having trouble today. All I wanna do is write and write and write about someone’s incredible interior and exterior beauty and then admit my undying and unquenchable love