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When my high school band director/comp teacher inevitably asks if I’ve written any music since getting to college, I’m gonna have to lie. I’ve written half a song and it is absolutely not “show the man who was a father figure to you” material
I opened up musescore and wrote 2 measures of one part of a wip piece. It’s barely anything but it’s more than I’ve done all summer so yippee
I showed my band director/music comp teacher an update on my project but forgot that I had accidentally left the subtitle on the first page as “yeehaw motherfuckers” and he told me that I should keep it like that lmfao
Music composition is so fun! Until I’m writing a flute duet cover of a piece and can’t tell what the hell the notes in the original bass line are
I finished my first piece for my music comp course and I’m so proud of myself! Listen it’s only 16 measures and the bass clef is shit but it’s something!
Fun activity for all ages: listen without checking the description and guess which gen each track is from
Love Waves - EP 1 - I Tried
Click here to read Love Waves - Introduction
“Since they decay so slowly, Love Waves are the most destructive. They are what most people feel directly.” 08-14-17 1:09PM xx.
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/ericajones10/playlist/578xr70RSiNTat98VyNGiy
Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/us/playlist/love-waves-ep-1-i-tried/idpl.u-55D6JjVCx9Xkmj
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLwEZgDEorNRSaeQLydheC9AIVennrYqme
1. SZA – Supermodel
2. blackbear – idfc (Tarro Remix)
3. A$AP Rocky – L$D
4. Big Sean – Jump Out the Window
5. NJOMZA – poison
6. mansionz – A Million Miles
7. Lil Dicky - Molly (feat. Brendon Urie of Panic at the Disco)
8. MUNA – Winterbreak
9. The 1975 – Somebody Else
10. Colouring – About You
11. Bebe Rexha – I Got Time
12. G-Eazy – Tumblr Girls (feat. Christoph Anderson)
13. Chris Brown – Autumn Leaves (feat. Kendrick Lamar)
14. Logic – Nikki
15. Wiz Khalifa – Promises
16. Lorde – Liability (Reprise)
Please listen to the playlist the first time without the shuffle on. Read my explanation after listening to the playlist at least once.
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(Disclaimer: Not every playlist will go as in depth with explanation as this one.)
Next week’s playlist is very light and pretty much no thinking is involved. :)
I Tried says what it means. I tried. This being the first playlist of the Love Waves series I tried to make it effortlessly flow. Surprisingly, this playlist was really easy to make. Some of the playlists coming in the future weeks are proving to be more challenging.
Who knows maybe nobody will even listen to them or read this. That’s alright. This is for me. These playlists are an extension of the being that I am. I really missed doing radio and sharing music constantly, so I’ve decided to curate weekly playlists. From Me. To You, if you’re listening.
I can relate to the theme of I Tired. All of the songs in there are songs I am attached to in some level of depth. There’s a theme of dysfunctional love running through most of this playlist. I have cried to some of these songs. Certain people or memories run around my mind when these songs play.
Supermodel opens up I Tried to paint a picture of wanting someone to love you even when you can’t quite seem to love all of yourself. There are so many lyrics that I can’t just relate to. At the basis of this opening song I feel an insecurity in myself and the others who have rejected me. Rejection is hard in any form, but I think when someone says no to you as a person it feels like something is fundamentally wrong with you even when things just weren’t meant to be. Sometimes things seem to line up, but they actually just don’t in reality. This song feels like a push and pull of “I don’t want you, but I need you to stay,” and I can heavily relate to that feeling. I’m sooo indecisive when it comes to things I really care about. I had a friend this summer who kind of helped with that a little. Like, he would make me pick the place to eat or what to do. Something so small as that really helped me grow to not be as afraid of making decisions when someone else is with me. When I care about someone I just want to do what they want to do. What makes them happy will be more than okay with me. I think that kind of killed it for the last guy I really cared about, or still do care about I guess. When he can’t make up his mind and you can’t make up your mind and you just keep wanting the other to make a decision already, it can cause some frustrations. Anyways, this is a vulnerable song of, “Your wrongs and my wrongs aren’t making anything right.”
Click here to see the music video for Supermodel by SZA (right now it’s only on Apple Music sorry)
idfc the Tarro Remix is just a fantastic remix of a great blackbear song. The song explains its importance to the playlist so easily by essentially saying, “As long as you’re there I don’t fucking care. Good or bad it does not matter.” There’s a toxicity in that type of relationship.
L$D is in my top three favorite music videos of all time. There’s this magical connection between music, and lights, and colors that is absolutely unmatched. Those are three of my favorite things. The emotion in the song comes from the backing music I think. The dainty, yet trippy guitar part sets the song’s mood perfectly. A$AP Rocky’s use of the lyric, “I look for ways to say, “I love you” but I ain’t into makin’ love songs,” to me, is so simple and yet beautiful. To me, it’s this person who may not be great at expressing their emotions really making an effort for let the person they love know how they feel. Almost like it’s this struggle for them to communicate, but at the end of the day it’s just words.
Click here to see the music video for L$D by A$AP Rocky
Jump Out the Window expresses the fact of “we get along, we’re friends, there’s something here, we aren’t working to find out what it could be, you keep giving idiots your time, I’m giving other idiots my time, I’m always here for you, there’s something that you won’t leave alone, and I’m getting tired of this here and there behavior,” really well. Also, the music is pretty dope too.
poison by NJOMZA is a song I have cried listening to. The feeling of going in circles comes from the pianos in the back and is confirmed by the lyrics. This song came out in early April 2017. That was one of the roughest months I have had since I was in highschool my Junior year. Things are better now, but nothing can take back those thoughts and emotions that were dealt with by myself. Ya know, it’s crazy what the absence of someone you care about will do to you when you can see them doing fine without you. (Also, don’t watch 13 Reasons Why. Triggered.)
A Million Miles is my favorite song off of the mansionz album. mansionz has a very special place in my heart. Not to mention the lyrics are ace and the music production is absolutely amazing.
Molly. Lil Dicky does a great job of expressing the small things a person can do for or around you, that you observe even when they don’t know it’s something they’re doing. Like, the goofy little quirks a person has that makes them memorable. I’m replaceable, and I see that. You’re replaceable, and I see that too. It’s just a hard pill to swallow sometimes. I just don’t do well with goodbyes and endings. I never have.
Click here to see the music video for Molly by Lil Dicky feat. Brendon Urie
Winterbreak by MUNA is a total song about the ups and downs between you and someone you just can’t quite let go of completely. Something about them keeps you around even when you try to stay at a distance. I first heard of MUNA when I saw them perform in NYC at the Gov. Ball Music Festival at the beginning of June 2017. I later saw them again in KC at the end of that same month. Hearing this song, swaying to this song, closing your eyes, and just being in the moment of this song being played live feels infinite until it hits you that it’s over. My mom really likes this song too. We jam in the car to it quite often. I actually got to hang out of a sunroof while blaring this song and my life felt like this detached/external music video that was fairly windy. The beginning of the chorus gets me everytime with the motion of the music and the lyrics.
Click here to see the music video for Winterbreak by MUNA
Somebody Else is written and performed by my favorite band The 1975. I have seen this song performed live at least three or four times. I saw The 1975 perform this song in both May 2017 and then June 2017 (when I went to Madison Square Garden), and each of those times was an emotional dance party of me singing my heart out. :) (Also, the lyrics, “I don’t want your body but I hate to think about you with somebody else. Our love has gone cold. You’re intertwining your soul with somebody else,” I mean come on, holy understandable. No, just me, oh okay. I’m loca I knowwww.)
Click here to see the music video for Somebody Else by The 1975
About You is performed by a group called Colouring. They are going to be huge one day. I’m calling it now. Their ability to make intelligent pop music is going to take them places. I first saw Colouring in May 2017 when they opened up for The 1975. Their stage presence is very welcoming and feels kind of heartwarming. They are just starting. I didn’t realise it until making a playlist with them that I had played one of their December 2016 releases in one of my radio shows. I got hooked on the song About You when I was in Victoria’s Secret one day in June 2017. I had a minor fan girl moment and quietly danced and sang to myself. Welcome to shopping with me..Oh yeah, back to the song. The repeated “I think about you, ‘bout you, ‘bout you” flows like a smooth stream of mellow EDM. That’s how I’d describe it anyways. The other lyrics are great too, just sayin’.
Click here to see a professionally recorded live performance video of About You by Colouring
I Got Time is a song about being selfish. I think we can all relate to that. I care a lot about some people, but even occasionally I feel the need to just do whatever the fuck I want. Bebe does a great job of capturing that with her lyrics and the music is prime driving around, windows down, dancing in my car, music. I be on my bad bitch vibes during this song haha.
Tumblr Girls. If you want to have a real discussion about what my head thinks and feels about this song you just hmu. This was one of the first songs I had ever heard from G-Eazy before I ever knew who he was. It’s in one of my SoundCloud playlists along with Let’s Get Lost. This was before I was really really into his music. Prior to subscribing to Apple Music in March 2016 I still bought CDs and that is expensive and very limiting in music selection. The lyrics are perfect in all of their chaos while describing the situation. The music is perfect and unlike anything I’ve really heard. The whole time it just feels kind of like waves are hitting you. They rise and fall and rise again and fall again. G will always have a corner reserved in my heart.
Click here to see the music video for Tumblr Girls by G-Eazy feat. Christoph Andersson
Autumn Leaves was actually introduced to me only a few days prior to this playlist’s conception. Grace and I had just gotten back from watching Logic perform in KC on August 12th. It was probably ten something at night. Grace has great taste in music. We had just parked the car, after talking about some life/relationship things, and I was preparing mentally for what was going to happen later. Then she said something like, “You’ll like this song.” We just sat there in the night with the headlights beaming on the blue apartment in front of us. She was right. I felt every bit of that song. The aggression in Kendrick’s voice. Then I knew fall was coming soon. I had that song on repeat for the last thirty minutes of my drive home Sunday and while I slept from essentially 5pm that night until 10pm something.
Click here to see the music video for Autumn Leaves by Chris Brown feat. Kendrick Lamar
Nikki is one of the very first Logic songs I was hooked on. If you haven’t noticed by now I get really attached to shit sometimes. The strings in the background mixed with whatever it is the rest of the music is made with is prime feels music. The whole time you think he’s talking about this girl he’s addicted to but at the end you find out it’s nicotine. He romanticised a substance–something that doesn’t actually talk. I can make the connection to somethings I can’t seem to get away from too and don’t truly want to get rid of I guess or else I would.
Click here to see an unofficial music video for Nikki by Logic
Promises comes right after Nikki because when I am driving around late at night this is always the order in which these songs are played. They just compliment each other so well. It’s just an Erica thing I suppose. Wiz’s Blacc Hollywood album has a special place in my heart too. I hadn’t heard it until probably late 2016 even though it was released in 2014. In NYC I was able to experience Wiz singing this song live. Now that, that was a moment with all of the lights, and colors, and smells, and bodies moving. My favorite lyric is, “And I already feel it now. It’s like you’re the only one. Only one who knows just how. How to make the time stand still. We’re caught in the moment. So don’t let me down.” I think there’s a sickeningly beautiful reliance he puts on another person in that song. Kind of like this vulnerability he’s willing to have with them. I know it can really hard for some people to open up or even just take in what another person is sharing with them. I’ve learned that.
Click here to see the music video for Promises by Wiz Khalifa
Click here to see an unofficial music video for Promises by Wiz Khalifa
Liability (Reprise) is the ending song. On your own, I suggest you go listen to Liability by Lorde to fully understand the whole story. Sometimes, it is so easy for me to feel like a liability to others. When will you finally get sick of me? When will you have had enough? I don’t need your attention to live but I live better when I get it. That’s messed up, right? To place that dependence on another person, or even maybe people, who don’t consistently make an appearance. I’m 21, and I’m free, I should have no worries, I should not be focused on what I do not have, I should not need anyone to love me and be there for me without asking, and yet here we are. I still feel like a burden sometimes because of other’s actions or lack thereof, and I even know it’s not on purpose. I know nobody I’ve surrounded myself with would knowingly sets out to hurt me. If they did purposefully do so then that’s fucked up and on them and not me. I would fight for them or be by their side through anything, but it never feels like they’d fight for me. My actions seem to go unmatched most times which can be really frustrating. I’m a liability. I’m a liability. I’m a liability. But I’m not. I am someone you want by your side for the simple reason I will not give up on you unless you break me so hard that I cannot come back. I was broken in April. I almost died. But you know, it’s August and I am a better version of myself for going through all of my lows. I got me through that. Granted, I had the understanding of my two closest friends. But I won. I learned to back off of the things I love because a flame can burn so strong, but if you start to smother it, it will eventually fade. I will fight for you as much as you fight for me now. I’ve learned not to love in complete abundance now. I love in pieces until the puzzle is complete, but I’m not going to force anything anymore.
Click here to watch a video of Lorde explain Liability
Click here to read the meaning of Liability (Reprise) by Lorde
Ohhhhkaaayyyy then. I hope you like the playlist! Let me know any or all thoughts you have about it or anything I guess.
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Love,
-E xx.
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Shoutout Kayla and Adam for giving me their input with the artwork I created and for listening to the playlist when I first completed it. Your constant flow of mostly constructive (because we joke around so much) critiques and support of me seriously means more than anyone will ever understand. You both just get me. I love you both to the ends of the universe and back. <3 <3
If you actually read all of this I genuinely want to know. Also, you da real MVP. xx.