#musing???

[one-twisted-sister]

This is the best example of some of the stuff you would find on the Midnight Circus grounds I;m so adding the Voodoo lounge to it pfft Persons YT is here 

[serve-the-legion]

World of Warcraft: Legion (2016)

[deaiustitia]

Ooc; this is something I need to put down into words before writing anything regarding Caitlyn's Commander's arc.

This is not meant to be any kind of defence or excuse for Cait. Actually, I'm here to call out my muse and give her a reality check. I'm honestly glad she was given this character arc to show us how privileged people react the moment their safety has been taken away from them.

There's a couple of points that I like to stress out for Caitlyn;

1. She definitely has a golden heart, she is kind and generous, and she is able to empathise with others, perhaps more than some other people could ever do. However, something vital to understand her person so far is that when she goes into the undercity, it isn't to help the people of Zaun. Her main goal was to find Silco, and she thought at the time that if he was eradicated, every problem would be solved. She never had the self reflection or an understanding that the root of the issue was the system itself.

2. Caitlyn is renown for bottling everything up and having an unhealthy way of processing her emotions. She is stubborn, she is a perfectionist, and she demands more to herself than anyone else. Failure and guilt are gnawinger at her bones to the core.

3. She never had to truly taste fear, sorrow, anger, and grief the way she is now. This is really the first time she is going through her world crumbling down under her feet. Even when she allows herself to cry for the first time with Vi, she only gives in for a couple of seconds before composing herself again, taking it back to point 2 of her bottling up everything.

With this said: is she extremely vulnerable and easy to manipulate in this stage? Yes, if you know which buttons to press, like Ambessa does. I also love the theory of Maddie being a spy for Ambessa and therefore keeping a close eye on Cait, knowing exactly what to say and ehat do to lure her even further into a trap of vengeance.

Is she blinded by grief and rage? By guilt of her own failure? Yes, definitely. Again, Cait has never tasted that kind of pain on her tongue before, the kind of sorrow barely allows you to feel anything else but anger, a suffering that weighs on her shoulder and pierces through her heart with a knife that twists and twists until there's almost nothing left to bleed. I'm not feeling guilty by assuming this is the most real and the worst hardship she had to ever face. She never had to witness true violence before, never knew what real fear for someone's life safety meant before the Arcane story began.

Is that an excuse to fall into martial law and a dictatorship? Personally? No, I do not excuse any of her behaviour. One life for thousands? Her mother was, at the end of the day, a symbol of privilege and oppression, and it doesn't matter she might have been the kindest between all the council members and that she did 'something' to help the undercity people aka bare minimum to "allow them to breath".

That was not enough. It was never enough.

So yeah, there's guilt, rage, and grief that build this new character arc, but despite how much I love Caitlyn I almost struggle to empathise with her. I do not judge her because honestly I have no clue what I would do her in situation but as she is fictional and I'm just a spectator, I find it genuinely fantastic the way Arcane is presenting to us a situation in which the minorities/forgotten ones have endured hell and had to put up with death every day, while the privileged could always ignore that suffering until it made their thrones tremble and suddenly anger is the easiest way to solve the situation rather than admitting their own faults that created that situation in the first place.

Anyway, love my cancelled wife <3 can't wait for her to realise the atrocity she was willing to do for her own personal interest that's going to be fun ugh.

[lysxandre-archived]

I can't stand the thought of the world getting uglier.

[auritus]

dirt is becoming another of my faves, there's just something about it that's just really important

[bewarethepurpleone-blog]

half of the people i talk to i'm not sure if i'm talking to or at them like talking to i can do that's just having a conversation but talking at is another issue entirely like you just keep running your mouth about stupid shit and no one answers you and it's great