#my 40s

[darter-blue]

See the thing is, I never 'let myself go' because I have never had a grip on anything in my life. Not once.

I'm the same damn mess I've always been.

[nomistakes-justlearning]

Watching 2017 become 2018🌝☀️ 🌌🌅

[captainpirateface]

Youngin's:

"What do you do in your 40s on a Saturday night John?"

Me:

"I post memes."

How far I've flown...

[newchapteroflife]

Opening my eyes

In my 20′s I just wanted to have fun and I did. In my 30′s I just wanted to have better....better home..better health..better income. What I really wanted in my 30′s was to fall to love and I did. However this love wasn’t and isn’t the healthiest. When I turned 35 I knew I wasn’t doing “better” at anything so I started to make changes. I started focusing on school. I started couponing and doing other things to save money. When I turned 38 I learned how to budget and I started a BS program however my relationship has often gotten in the way of my goals and now at 40 I can see. I can see what is wrong with my relationship. I can see that he wants a cheerleader. I can see that he doesn’t want a partner that makes as much as him. He wants a partner he can make fun and tease about having a “woman brain.” I see now. Now I plan how to make my future better.