#my useless posts

[zombooyah]

Syfy Channel is having a Twilight Zone Mother's Day Marathon today. And Twilight Zone Day is also tomorrow. So there's your excuse if you didn't want to visit Mom today or go to work tomorrow.

[watercolor-hearts]

I think today's one of those hard days when I miss being friends with one of my ex-friends (this sounds so bad 😞) because the reflex to send that Toprak and Jack post to them was so strong. They would've loved it and we'd probably still be talking about it and creating stories and stuff like that like we did every time a rider (or driver) posted something heart-related.

But I fucked up everything and I can't just randomly send a post like that after not talking since last summer. It's hard. I could probably send it, they didn't tell me not to talk to them, it was me who needed space and it's me who's thinking is black and white so either talking everyday or not talking at all, but I'd feel bad for only sending kinky stuff and not being there when they need me.

I now miss them so much. This is probably the first time I miss them kinky conversation-wise and not just in general but it's really hard now.

[judgement-nishiki]

"I'm perfectly fine" I tell myself as I go through the zending tag on tumblr dot com

[sco-ob]

Me: “I’m actually feeling good today!” Me 2 minutes later: *Crying on the floor while listening to country*

[watercolor-hearts]

When you leave a miles long comment and there's a one sentence comment above and below yours.

I feel like an attention seeker.

I really hope I wasn't too much.

[watercolor-hearts]

13 hours in, in a drawing I'm debating to post at all because it's kinky and it could be triggering to people and they could say mean things to me about it, and I just don't know if it's worth it at all.

I mean I could put it under a cut with warnings at the beginning of the post like I did with my previous kinky Fingertips universe drawings but I hate having to hide my drawings because they're about a certain kink that's not as common and accepted as others. 😞

Other people don't hide their extremely bloody/gore (my triggers) fanarts either. Usually they don't even tag them so I can't even filter them out. But yeah. I don't know if tagging it would be enough. What do you guys think?

[watercolor-hearts]

What does your workspace look like? What do you like most about it? And do you have any unusual habits or rituals before you start working on something creative?

My workspace currently looks like a bead disaster. 😃

The dead plant on the left symbolizes my mental state.

The Carlos eye painting on the right is by the master themselves, pityroadart. ❤

What I like the most about it is that it's in front of the window. I hate everything else because it's really small. (If I put my laptop on it, it almost uses all the space.) In the dorm I had a much bigger table and I loved it, but my room is too small for a table like that.

I don't have any unusual habits or rituals, I think. 🤔

[watercolor-hearts]

Bachelor's thesis and graphic design project defense is oveeeeer. 🎉🎉🎉

Guys it was such a good experience with so many nice words and constructive criticism. 🥰 I'm so glad we clicked easily with the jury and agreed on everything. I'm so happy. 🥰