....The new Lexie is no longer in the business of begging for love, consideration, loyalty and honesty from others. She truly and whole heartedly believes she is worthy and deserving of exactly what she sees for herself in life, the things that makes her heart flutter, within all aspects and areas of her life. She feels people out before blindly trusting them and devoting her loyalty as a form of self-protection. She understands she is worthy of boundaries. She asks "is this/are they right for me?" Instead of hoping others find her worthy enough. she can see and accept people for who they are and where they are instead of getting caught up over "potential." She doesn't hesitate to make the decision to reject people that don't align with her even if she can understand their story. she no longer accepts breadcrumbs. She no longer tones herself down to make others feel comfortable about themselves. She doesn't tolerate people who are unsure about her. She allows people to miss out on her, without feeling she needs to convince, fuss or beg for their love. she is turned off by people who find pleasure in making women feel they need to perform for their love or view us as only sexual objects. she no longer prays, hopes or wishes for people to see her value. She is content with having people lay in the beds that they made no matter how much she loved them or how convincing the sob story is. She understands people make mistakes but she no longer accepts words as change. She understands that she is worthy of respect & to be treated like royalty by potential lovers. She only dates people who admire her ambition, creativity and beauty, not intimidated or jealous by it. She doesn't date people who are content with watching her carry all of the weight of life and relationship herself. She doesn't associate with people whose source of confidence stems from how inadequate they can make another person feel. She can see straight through hollow egos. She is more than her body and treats it with the upmost love and care. Even her relationships that turn out to just be a "fling" are with people who value their bodies and have an equal level of self-respect within themselves as well and still are interested in investing in her growth & expansion in some way shape or form. Community d*ck gives her nightmares. Getting her in bed now takes a certain amount of effort and time to be put in that makes anyone that complains or objects look like complete jokes to her. She still doesn't take it personally because she understands it is only an automatic response for humans to cringe at or demand an explanation for things they cannot afford at times. She is no longer a personal emotional regulator for people who don't consider her feelings after they've regulated themselves again. She understands how important it is to prioritize herself. She loves being around people who are hungry for growth and expansion. Who share the same fear of wasting their potential in this lifetime. She is independent, a boss, an exceptional visionary and artist, intelligent, lover of god, a leader with a mind of her own. She understands that her worth is not defined by anyone or thing outside of herself. she is unbreakable, resilient, determined, and driven by her passion. She can alchemize the hardships and blockages encountered in her life into beautiful art. She is powerful. She isn't afraid of darkness, she instead embraces it when it comes because she understands that it is here to teach her. She recognizes that love comes in many ways. She is okay being alone with herself. She isn't afraid to bet on and invest in herself. she honors her self-expression wholeheartedly. She does not make art for others but for herself to share with others. Her integrity, values, and boundaries cannot be bought out. She is careful before she participates in things that would cause her to dishonor herself. She is rich in love, spirit and creativity. She trusts herself above all else because She knows she is capable of meeting her own needs and can be to herself the lover of her dreams.
