💗 - 8.18.22 | Friday
I’ve been feeling extremely motivated lately.. like I just have a clear mind and I actually want to do stuff and get out the house. I woke up this morning made breakfast, stretched & went to the gym. Tomorrow i’m getting drunk with a close friend of mine and i’ve really just been enjoying life.
It’s just so weird considering just last week i was super super depressed.. the entire summer has been awful for me. I had such a bad mental breakdown last week and just drank and now i’m like enjoying life. I’m not sure if I have bipolar depression, and I don’t want to self diagnose myself but i do get evaluated September 6th. I’m kind of nervous this is all going to just end but I really do like having control over my thoughts and feeling normal. But i can’t help but think maybe I am bipolar and this is just a Manic episode, ugh it’s so frustrating to actually think about but all I can do is research on it and I’ll talk to my therapist about it Wednesday.
