#myendocarp

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While this fandom can absolutely be a prison I do want to say before we have the finale how much I do appreciate the more reasonable side of the fandom.

The people who actually analyze the show and take things into context. The people who watch the show because they want to and don’t act like they’re being made to watch it. The people who are critical but reasonable. The people who have fun with the show. The people who have felt very painfully seen throughout this last season.

Fandom can be a nightmare at times but it’s very nice to take a breath and remember that it’s a very vocal minority with the bad takes, not the majority of the fandom.

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I really hope we see Victoria next season in her emergency psych rotation with Caleb working together on cases. Icons of clocking what’s wrong with their coworkers

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The sun forming a halo on his head I’m going to go insane

(Btw!! I am not trying to pull Christian religious imagery out of this! I am not Jewish I do not know enough about it to speak on the symbolism, I am just aware that there are angels in Judaism and the art I’ve seen of them depicts halos in a way that looks like this! Please tell me if I’ve got something wrong here!)

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There’s something important about it being Dennis’s, the formerly homeless med student, badge that gets taken by Digby (I don’t think he took it as in stole it off of him but he probably found it on the ground outside the hospital).

Because in that final scene with Digby and the mannequin, what do we see him doing? He’s teaching, he’s talking about the history of fireworks and he looks excited as he does. He’s emulating Dennis, who’s been teaching the new med students.

There’s probably something more detailed and complex to say but my brains a little fried rn if anyone has anything to add please do!!

Edit because I had more ideas

One of the big things we saw with Digby is that he hasn’t been treated kindly in a very long time. We don’t know why he’s not living in his house with his daughter, we do know is that he’s been living on the street with a cast that’s been on so long there were maggots.

We also see that Digby himself is so beautifully kind. He moves his bed out of the way when they need the space for a trauma, he sits and talks with Louie for over an hour, he’s so polite to everyone he interacts with.

I kind of see Digby as being a bit like Dennis in season 1 and the last scene is like him becoming the season 2 version of Dennis. He ends the season with the badge and he’s talking to the mannequin, an unlikely friend from the hospital. He’s even had a little bit of a glow up like Dennis did (especially with the hair). Idk just think it’s another interesting thing I love all the little details you can find in the Pitt

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I don’t think I’ll ever stop thinking about Al-Hashimi scene in the car. She has spent her entire life proving that she deserves to be where she is, against circumstances she had no say in. And she is a good doctor, she’s god damn fantastic. She replicated a technique she’d seen, not done but seen, once and saved that kid. Baran Al-Hashimi is a good doctor and she is a good person.

Then she has 2 seizures within 15 hours. The condition she has had control over for the last few years breaks through on one of the worst days it could.

“People just think I’m thoughtful.” She’s having seizures and people don’t notice because these seizures fit perfectly into her demeanour as a doctor. Kind, thoughtful, considerate. She takes that little extra time with patients. It’s like how people might throw themselves into their work to distract themselves from their problems; their work ethic becomes a symptom of their condition.

Hasn’t she done enough? She’s pushed and pushed her entire life, gone above and beyond and it took one day for her to lose so much. She can’t drive, her independence is going to be gone for months. And just for a moment, it’s like she wants to be selfish. She wants to drive home so she doesn’t have to face what the next six months (at minimum) would be like for a little while longer.

I really wish they hadn’t cut the scene of her calling her ex-husband because that would’ve been so interesting. Al-Hashimi has spent the entire day trying to show everyone she can do this on her own, she is qualified and capable (and she is!!). So her reaching out to her ex-husband would be her acknowledging that no, she can’t be independent right now and she needs that help.

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Project Hail Mary but instead of grace and rocky it’s trinity and Dennis

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I’ve seen the headcanon around that Dennis is absolutely the kind of guy who will not rest or get medical attention until he is actively dying (and even then he’s fighting it off). I’ve seen the reasoning behind it being that he’s just so self-sacrificing that he doesn’t want to be a problem so he makes all his problems smaller. I agree with that.

But I think that it also comes from the fact he’s from a farming family. If a farmer is going to a hospital because his wife wanted him to he’s about to have widowmaker heart attack.

Tangentially I think this is why he wants to do rural emergency medicine. Farming towns in general can be extremely far from hospitals, hospitals that usually have the bare minimum. If you have anything that needs long term treatment and can’t be fixed immediately, you’re driving 3-4 hours each way to visit the specialist.

Unless there’s someone in that hospital who they can connect with who can push them to go those appointments or work around it for them, they’re going to die untreated. We heard about his uncle dying of alcoholism, something that needs time intensive treatment in a location likely hours away from the farm.

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HE DOES WHAT NAKED WHY DO YOU KNOW THAT ROBBY