#myfvckingtherapy

[scheherazade89]

I wish I can always frankly say to everyone that I dont give a damn with your opinion. what's so wrong if we take our time slowly? what's so wrong if we choose to enjoy the moments, let the magic linger and disolve in our dream? for once, I have let my heart to believe, that fairy tale somehow does exist in this cold world. hell, I'll write the frigging story myself for what it takes. yes, I have risked my heart, but isn't every decision have its own risk. even if you make a godamn commitment, tied everything tidy and take that holy vow, hearts still breaking now and then, thousands promised still burned and shattered-gone with the dust of mid summer dream. we are taking every chances now. please, don't ask me to kill the bud just bcoz it haven't shows its petal yet.

[scheherazade89]

for the road that u said I had forgotten

you know,, my heart definitely doesn’t made out of stone and I too,, melted with grief and guilt reading ur words this big lump of pain in my chest would never disolve no matter how I cry a river or a frigging ocean for you you said that I am your sun, your absolute light of your life actually, I just wanna be your daughter and I dunno how many strayed and forgotten wishes I threw in every shooting stars,, hoping that you are only a mere mom, without lace, frills and curtain calls I am so tired to give you a standing ovation and tried tried tried to understand the reasons behind all those scenes why couldn't you understand and for once in your lifetime step down from that damned spotlight and see me as who I am?

[scheherazade89]

the darkest hour

sometimes, when night was too quiet and time went still I laid in my bed thinking the sensitive bitch with too much drama and random mood who live in the depth of my soul and then come that mean ruthless voice in my head "yeah dear, who gonna love u anyway"

[scheherazade89]

just sayin

know that those who care about you will never complain when u called them for trivial matters. but even you can get tired of being pathetic n lame,, and so are they...

[scheherazade89]

Those colorful fragments„ a kaleidoscope which we put together„ will shine Brighter than that lone star in a winter night As I worship the simple joy that u once showed me Carelessly Yes, I’ve been counting those pebbles Yes, I’m still marking the path I don’t want to get lost anymore The night might seems cruel after that Tick-tocking annoyingly without even give me chance to ask why This rambling thought only because I don’t know yet how to say it nicely Maybe I don’t have the courage to name it And curse me if I was threw back enviying the moon pitifully As if time went still and I didn’t want to make a wish when dawn breaks I’ll live as the breeze who scatter dried leaves without looking back So stay„ coz I’m waking up to dream

~fragment from Underneath the same Blue Sky