words I told to stay alive

My world, my story, my rule... ctfo!

[milluviousa]

Question

Will it ever be enough?  as I let my thought wandering away through the dead of the night restless and trembled  don’t get me wrong I’m still grateful for each time the rain came and devoured all the bad memories but still, the loneliness that stubbornly stay in my heartbeat will never be washed away so should I stay?

-lluvia

[scheherazade89]

mood...

[scheherazade89]

The Book of Forbidden Feelings by Lala Bohang

[scheherazade89]

Last farewel

Today rain is falling

Sighing, I took the long road and pay my last respect

Thousands words suffocating me again and again

Words that I would never say and should never say

After all, I perhaps only a brief chapter in your book of life

I even do not own any right to have your resentment, if only a mere memory

There is no tears to shed, coz I dont know what for am I crying?

We had parted our ways long ago and I could see that you are happy with your choice

And really, there is nothing more I can ask from you

Nevertheles, the small of me still hoping a chance to say sorry

To let it all out and make you understand that I was never meant to hurt you

When you probably had not thought about it anymore

This is not a sadness, only my own way to seek small penitence for myself

Which only made me felt smaller

You always shine brightly with that childish smile and too much kindness

If there any joy I should have, is only a blind faith that you will start your journey peacefully

So I will only bide you in silents, in full admiration and respect

For someone who had tried to live his life fully and bravely

Coz somewhere in the death of the night

A heart was left devastated, broken by grief

Silent wails piercing the pitch black sky

Hanging on to memories

[scheherazade89]

Ode for now

My last spilled ink was about a year after I met you... roughly a year after the fate playfully crossed our path. Then my world was a complete silent and serene. Of course you still gave me the mood now and then, but the more we spent time togehter, the more time grew still with peace. Soon there were no busy dark worries filling my heart with anguist. We walked through the path leisurely, hand in hand, treaded the bridge, stood on the edge of cliff and fallen as hard as we should. For once my words were lost and totaly vanished. One time made me breathless and desperately clingy, and another you freed me to fly higher than I ever be. And I just know that my world will just never be the same without you on my side.

I did not know how long time had left me speechless. But I still got you and that's enough. I could not write about us, coz no word seemed wonderful enough to describe this feeling. Now is roughly about 2 years since I met you. And I just proudly saying that I still falling head over heels into you...

[scheherazade89]

to D

it's been more than a year since I fell in love with u and how those moments became magical time of my life and we still walking side by side in this story we put so much hope, hanged up our dreams in myriad constellation yet we dont know how this will end... for this note I made a memoir of our little heaven in earth that even so many times I have said I love you, but more and more I often forget to say thank you to let you know how grateful I am having you near so thank you, for loving me back you never give me sweet sweet words, but still you stay around when the strom hit hard and thank you, for endless understanding we fight, you sulk, I nag nag nag when you too immersed on those games when I am around... but whenever I am too tired to do anything, but still blatantly steal comfort and crash on your place, you let me be. you gather me close. you make me whole again thank you, so many thank you, for giving me lot of space even when I am being impossible, breaking into histerical sob or devastated over smallest things... you never complain, but being true... offering warm hug and steady place for me to mourn... and above all, thank you my love coz you are my miracle, my fairy tale come true, my man and my bestfriend... loving you will always be the most beautiful tale I ever granted.

[scheherazade89]

broken dawn

morning was beautiful birds chirping cheerfully rays of dawn softly caressing wet grasses wonder why this peaceful scene in front my eyes seems like a world away the tears that pooled in my heart silently the pain that taken away my strength patiently and words,,, those billions sadness that I couldn’t say were burning, suffocating my senses to blind wonder why when the spring stubbornly knocking my door I am still withering here all alone coz that just how the world cheated the loser and lonely time changes and blooms in everywhere but me.

[scheherazade89]

that damned glass wall

there are so much more reliable than you sometimes it feels like we are living in two different glass world that occasionally clashed maybe when the spark died we can just drifted away caressing the memories oh memories bleed out and the pain will suckerpunch us now and then but we will still be okay coz part of us never really merge together we just 2 creatures that incidentally carved an awkward romance with abundant faith that feelings wouldn't ever gone stale.

[sixpenceee]

Natural Swimming Pools

Natural swimming pools use plants or a combination of plants and sand filters to keep the water clean and clear without chemicals. They were developed in Austria and Germany in the 1980s and have since grown in popularity worldwide. They can be designed in a multitude of ways: Some look like natural ponds; others may be disguised as standard tiled pools. (Source)

[scheherazade89]

I wish our magical moments will never end

love you

[culturenlifestyle]

Vintage Photographs Are Digitally Transported Into Whimsical Fantasy Worlds by Jane Long 

Australian artist Jane Long digitally manipulates vintage black and white photographs into surreal, whimsical worlds, where their subjects are given a second life in her series Dancing with Costica. The images she utilizes are photographs from WWI, which were capture by Romanian war photographer Costică Acsinte.

Although Long has received some flack from viewers about altering the meaning and the subjects’ true identity, she explains: “I wanted people to see these figures as real people, more than just an old photograph. Adding colour completely changes our perception of images.” 

The stunning collection will be exhibted at Ballarat International Photo Biennale from August 22nd to Septmeber 20th. 

[scheherazade89]

reblog: too eerily fantastic

[scheherazade89]

loner wish

the stray breeze was a prelude and soft soft rustle of falling leaves was the serenade when I counted the seconds fallen farther away from my dreamland here I sat, breathing my loneliness in a serene morning when dew even haven't awaken those thin fog are my only shelter let the world forgot me for a while let no voice could reach me as I talked to my heart feeling the loner in me embracing her weakness and fears let her crawling and trembling in the darkest pit let her shattered and broken apart and the dawn breaks time for me to wake up and rise coz the show must go on anyway by I_ris

[scheherazade89]

morning after the storm long gone.

you know it’s hard to build a home home that is not just a home but also a shelter, an ultimate fortress place when you feel save and peaceful body and soul then luckily I found you coz you brought me back to home everytime I woke you in the shy of dawn and you would sleepily pulled me to your embrace I would then place my head on the crook of your shoulder blade breathing your warmth, worshipping your soul until then I got to fully understand what it’s mean to have your entire world righted instantly

[scheherazade89]

the night when I missed you though you were right beside me.

it’s the 5th months.

so far I didnt write any coz really, time was a good palz of mine and everything we did feels like burst of colorful confetti oh yeah, I am in love with your way, your style, your everything you are my personal wonderland my morning star and moonlight serenade until we let everything slipped through our palm.

it’s the 5th months, currently we spent time waiting and I can feel the ground under me slowly crumbling oh yeah, I am no longer in love with you coz I love you in every breath that I take even when it leave me suffocating I love you wish that it was enough for holding on.

[scheherazade89]

Be mine…

-I wish I can shout this right to the world

YOU.ARE.MINE

-not for the title, not for public consumption or acceptance in our social life

but u said u want to do it right and I had promised u to wait yet don’t you know how hard it is to wait in uncertainty and it really drives me crazy and damn you, really if I got to beg for this,

[ineedyoutofreeme]

I fell in love once and it destroyed me.

[scheherazade89]

repost; couldn't say better..

[scheherazade89]

Heyo, more people asked than I expected lol but I'd love to be friends and if we develop feelings that'd be sweet!

yes, I love to be friend.. i like your post. you always write so passionately. I hope u wouldn't feel lonely anymore.

[scheherazade89]

falling.

if Faudet wrote about the perfect night to fall in love for me it was the day when I watched the sun rising as faithfully as ever and the misty street just woke up spilled out eager faces and silent hopes it was the time when I thought about u the most when I felt you close enough in my heart yet far far away from my reach how this young love had changed everything and honestly, not all of it was beautiful but even so, I wouldn't want to rid the scars for anything coz they were what we've been through minutes by minutes moments by moments yes dear, hearing you said you love me was never enough coz love is a continuous work and for now I would like to keep you years years after until both of our hair turned gray and you start playing chess instead of sniper elite 3 well, maybe until then you would still sitting in front of your beloved pc playing the latest game like the hell I care, really I hope when the times come, I would still be able hug you from behind listen you boast the glory and curse the downfall it was the day that made me fall in love coz you just happened to cross in my path and how so complete my life after that...