ok but this isn't going to be short - I LOVE 1, how strong and kind I am but I can't take all the credit I have to give some to my family, who decided to help me print and hand out flyers for food inc.and my mom who decided to go help the homeless for Christmas. that's right my hole family is a family of activist for human rights, I am to I just say I'm a gay activist because that's the rights I'm standing up for at this time.2. how beautifully I've grown and how much I've learned throughout my existence. 3. the fact that I'm very imaginative, I have like three awesome back ground story's for jack Spicer that I've never publicly posted but man it's like a movie theater in my head,4. I'm a good artiest, I might not be the best but hey I think I'm pretty darn good. 5.. the bad things I experienced in my life, I've been in a place of darkness though half my life, like the reason I do love the character jack Spicer so much is because he reminds me a lot of my old self, growing up I didn't love my self enough to respect my self, I was very closed off from people, and I remember hating feeling so vulnerable, I would be mean to other people, especially people I felt close to, so I could never get to close to them, because I was so afraid of being hurt by them, and I remember telling my self how much I would screw up before I would even try at something so that way if I did give it my all and I did fail, I wouldn't have to feel that emotion of devastation you get when you work hard on something and do fail, I could just blame it on how "that's just me" and " I'm just a screw up" it took me a long time to learn how to love myself correctly,convey my feelings correctly, and how to love others correctly. for all those in a dark place, who suffer from low confidence and self esteem, just know what ever your going through it won't last forever, and even thought it may seem hopeless and if you feel like you are powerless it's not and your not, I know this might sound cheesy but learn how to love your self, you need to give that gift of love to your self, because you are worth it, and don't let what you've done in your past keep you down, making mistakes is a part of human life, you need to mess up to learn how to do things, you have to get it wrong a few times before you can get it wright, never be too hard on yourself for making mistakes. it's not worth the trouble and the stress to bring upon your self like yin and yang, you have to experience some of the darkness before you can appreciate the light, I honestly believe infinite love is all that their is, love is the only solution and love is the only answer. and if you still doubt how beautiful you are, just think you exist, and anything that has existence is beautiful, if you weren't meant to be here you wouldn't be, and my ten favorite followers are shadow-spiritus ( {dreams fade } ) xxxjackspicerxxx (join the heylin side)mynanapost (Rodyna) dragonofdarknesschaos (just chaos)kate-spicer (Beztytutu)many-heatlook (many-heatlook)demonfigure (Dj Ave)fairygai11(truffula Dream)candycanesureissweet(coffee crumbs)andkimikoandchase(chase and kimiko)and I know I always give credit to you guys but really I can'tthank you all enough, for message me, reading my stuff and just talking me, you guys are really awsome followers and as far as I know reallyfun,creative, and awsome people period.
