My 2018 in review
Oh boy, what can I say about this year? This has probably been the second worst year for me (2012 being the worse) All the big plans I had hoped for this year went out the window. I guess I should spill on everything that happened this year now; I didn’t want to say anything earlier in the year because I didn’t think anyone would care about my problems. But anyway, back in June the first major thing that happened that sent my year into a spiraling misery is that my mom lost her job, it came suddenly out of nowhere. My mom was an admin for a real estate office and with just a few weeks’ notice, her boss announced her office would close down and of course that happened right at our vacation time. We had planned a trip to Canada, the same trip we had planned last year, but couldn’t take it and now we had to cancel it again this year. And of course that sent me into severe depression because I was really looking forward to that vacation. That was the reason for my depressing journal back several months ago and those words still hold true today. Of course, my mom did get a pension from her job and was able to file for unemployment, but that only goes so far for so long. What’s make our situation more dire is that my parents still have a montage to pay off on our house and my mom’s income from her job made up most of the payments. My dad lives on retirement and social security and cannot go back to work because of his disabilities.
Of course, I have a job myself, but it is only part time and the petty income I get from my job doesn’t nearly make up for the amount of income my mom made. That is why I said I might have to give up on my art, with this situation I have to find another job that is full time or a second job I can work at when I’m not at my first job and of course that would leave very little time for my art. I would be just too exhausted and stressed to do anything art wise. I have been job hunting for the past several months with no prevail, I’ve had several job offers that sounded promising, but never fell through. I haven’t given up yet, but it’s getting harder and harder to find a decent job. Also money has been getting tight because my mom no longer as job, so I barely got a anything this year, I still went out with my friends when I could and went to small events, but most of my time was spent in my room watching life pass me by. I had also planned on going to a furry con this year, but no, that never happened because all my saved money had to other things and my parents would not be thrilled with spending any of their money on something like that. Now it’s doubtful I’ll ever will be able to go to a furry con being how tight money is for me.
I really don’t know what the next year will hold for me because if my mom or me doesn’t find a new job soon, my parents will fall behind on montage payments and our house will go into foreclosure and we will be forced to move again and don’t know where we are going to move to, it won’t be a nice house that’s for sure or even a decent apartment. So yeah, right now my future is very uncertain and I don’t know how much longer I can continue with my art or stay on DA. Of course, I love doing my art, but right now I just don’t see it as a reliable income source.
Anyway, I do want to leave this on a happy note, I still want to thank all of the people on here that have continued to support my art and have been my long-term friends on here. Without any of you I probably would not have lasted as long as I have been on here or even through this rough year.
So yeah, happy fucking new year to me!