#mypersonalstuff

[sunzonked]

ʕ　˵·ᴥ·ʔ let's get take-out dumplings and watch hunter x hunter ʕ　˵·ᴥ·ʔ

[thepsychicclam]

Okay, so I’m posting a link to my Barbells for Boobs fundraising page bc I had a couple of anon ppl ask for the link so they could donate anonymously.

Just a recap for those who missed it over the weekend, BFB is a breast cancer fundraiser to help empower women and encourage people to take action against breast cancer. Crossfit boxes, gyms, and lifters all join together and do workouts in honor of breast cancer each week leading up to it, and then on Oct 28, I’ll be working out at our box’s fundraising event in honor of everyone who donates.

You can donate as little as a dollar! Every little bit helps our box reach our goal, and the foundation reach their yearly goal! You can also donate anonymously. This link sends you directly to my fundraiser page. All the money goes directly to the organization, not to me! I would love it if those of you who are able could donate a few dollars. Like I said before, I have a bigger tumblr/fandom family and friend group that in real life, so I’m asking y’all! 

Thanks to those who have already been generous enough to donate! I really really appreciate it!!! Y’all rock! 

Here is the link to the fundraising page: click here for link

(please don’t reblog this post. the link has a few rl details, which was my hesitation of posting the link in the first place, but i tweaked it slightly so if anyone irl comes across it they won’t know lol i’m gonna delete this post in about a week, so please don’t reblog so i can take it off! thanks :))))

[alois-lapis]

My introduction

Ok, Hi

Probably my posts might feel awkward for some time, but i've never done anything like this before and just to have nice start I thought that an introduction moght be nice.

So I prepared few facts about me.

I'm Blair (and I don't like using my real name so please don't ask).

I'm in many fandoms. Probably unhealthy many.

I'm from Europe (and english is not my first language so if I make any mistakes feel free to correct me).

I've been drawing for some time now (few years) and hope to post some of them online.

I'm really socially awkward (if you couldn't tell already).

And lasty I hope that after all this time I can finally stay true to myself.

[alois-lapis]

Ok... emmm... hi?

It feels awkward to write? But i feel like it could help me (?) At least my friend told me that expressing myself could help me.

So... hi i'm Blair and hopefully i'll post more and not delete this post in a few minutes.

[theirdarkreturning]

Pride stuff ~~~~

I see everyone on Facebook and Twitter posting these amazingly heartfelt things about being LGBT+/queer and my heart aches cuz I really want to comment or post something but things are way too awk with my family still and I don’t want to push it. Also, most of my extended family is on FB and I’m not ready for that shit yet. 

BUT LIKE. I JUST WANT TO JOIN IN ON THE PERFORMATIVE QUEERNESS AND TALK ABOUT HOW AMAZING IT IS TO BE BISEXUAL.

anyway, i wonder if anyone following me on goodreads will notice that i’ve been binging almost exclusively queer fiction for the last few days

[6psychopaticmarik6lover6]

Wish there was a way I could turn of my follow button as more than half of my follower count are porn blogs .__. I don’t use this blog anymore but I can’t really bring myself to deleting it because at one point, this blog meant something to me even if all I ever did mostly was reblog things I related to rather than write what was going on inside of me.  I still use tumblr... Just not this blog anymore. I hope you’re all doing well and that many of you have been able to overcome whatever kept you in a dark place last time I was around here. I’m still at the same rock bottom I’ll always be. I’m still depressed. I still want to kill myself. And I feel like I’ll always exist like that until the day I die. Whether that should happen because of old age or suicide. I still just want this life to be over with and cease from existing.

That is all for now. Peace out.

[theirdarkreturning]

that passive depression feel when you’re not really sad but you’re not really anything and it’s just sort of like oh right i need to shower before i see Real People aka anyone who is not Me

[theirdarkreturning]

I wrote a one act and I’m at the point where I hate it. I don’t think I’m going to leave this stage. It’s not a Good Show. 

I don’t know what to do.