Glazed Eyes, Empty Hearts
Hi guys, alot of things changed in my life since the last time i posted something.. I was completely broken. I just couldn't deal with life anymore. I wandet to die. The person who was most impotant to me in the world had stabbed me in the back. I literally spend the last few weeks/month at home. I didn't wanted to go out. It was just too much for me to handle. The pain was unbearable and the betrayal was too painful to handle...How could you do this? You know exactly what you've done...and you still choose to fuck with my emotion like this. I was done with humanity. I was in so much pain and anger. I lost my mind. It was driven me crazy. I wanted the thoughts to stop but they were getting louder and louder. I wanted to scream from the bottom of my lungs but i couldn't...You just killed the spark that was keeping me alive.
"I saw the part of you, that only when you're older you will see too... Well you look like yourself but you're somebody else, only it ain't on the surface. Well you talk like yourself but I hear someone else though...You were the better part of every bit of beating heart that I had, whatever I had..I finally sat alone pitch black flesh and bone..."
This song was written for you, you simply broke me and I will never ever forgive you. The sad part is that I will always love you. Loving is hard I get that but this Love almost killed me and for once in my life my thoughts were completely silence and I realized it's time for me to say goodbye. I had to let you go. This was the sign God was sending me.
I met a guy a few weeks ago. This one guy managed that i can see the light at the end of the tunnel again. He has done things that I could never have imagined with you and that scared the hell out of me. He is the sun on a cloudy day. He is the healer of my pain. He is a god send on my prays. HE saved my life.
Thank you
- a vision of ecstasy
