#n.meme

[fmdrinaarchive]

👀 + how do you feel about your new short hair now? 👀 + given the chance, would you switch positions with any of your members? 👀 + who are the top 3 people that mean the most to you?

“i hate my hair being short, i really, really, really hate it. i hope the company see’s that it doesn’t look good on me and they won’t do it for a concept. and.no i don’t think i’d switch. and the top three people...my grandpa, grandma and...a close friend of mine.” 

[fmdkamiarchive]

👀 + do you think the public will ever understand your side of the story concerning your recent scandal?

Send me a “👀 + a question” and my muse has to answer honestly!

“they might, they might not. i’m not sure if i care beyond my company not being upset anymore. once i come out with the truth, i’m going to keep moving on. i think they might but i also know that some people have already made up their mind about me so i won’t think about it too much.”

[fmdrinaarchive]

👀 + do you think the entertainment industry will be able to provide you all the things that you wanna acquire?

Send me a “👀 + a question” and my muse has to answer honestly!

“yes? maybe?” nari wasn’t sure about the question or her answer. “if you count acting, then..yes..i think. i want to be an actress more than anything...so i  could get that, yes.”

[ittousei]

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This...turned out longer than I expected and I ended up babbling nonsense.

I'm protective of you, I think I always have been. Ever since that crap with turtle and his crazy ass fling when he first popped up, I remember just wanting to set the record straight because I just knew how much stress it'd put on you and him both. I never really thought much of it, to be honest. I wanted you to enjoy your time here, I didn't want you (or anyone) to have to deal with the drama and the crap, and it just pissed me off they were pulling you into their twisted little game. It took us a while to get to actually talking, but I'm glad we eventually did. This is supposed to be about feelings, arrrgh. Okay.

I know this is stupid, but when you told me that you knew me since my old blog, it made me happy, and I can't explain exactly why. I felt this warmth in my chest because it means you kind of took the time to just go through my incoherent thoughts and random mood swings. I also thought it was cute when you were too, I don't know...shy? about approaching my Aoi, but I'm glad things worked out the way they did. I consider you one of my closest friends.

You get the jist about how I feel, I know you do (and if not I'm gonna smack myself upside the head because lol embarrassing), so I'm not going to really explain it here. You're already in an awkward situation, I guess, and I just don't want to put stress on you. I just...I feel happy because of those stupid dreams I have (no, not those dreams but the ones I've been having a LOT lately that I kinda realize you actually have no idea about), and then just being able to talk to you and play Creed. It gives me something to look forward to. I trust you, and it's really hard for me to do that with anyone...to me, that says a lot in itself. God, this isn't even close to what I want to say.

I feel the way I do about you and I'm hoping you know it so I don't have to say it because dear god, it's hard enough to even admit it to myself. Not because I don't want to feel this way about you, but because I've been denying it to myself for I don't even remember how long. Could be weeks, could be a month, maybe longer. From what my other best friend said, she picked up on it a while ago, and I don't really know how long ago that is, but I guess it's been there. Fuck, I sound like a stalker or obsessed and I'm really not like that, I swear. *Laugh* I guess I kept it to myself because I know it's a slim to zero chance, and you already have enough on your plate with everyone else, I don't want to add more crap on you.

What I'm trying to say is that you make me happy and I'm grateful I have you in my life just as we are. I'm willing to help you in any way I can, even if I don't know what to say most of the time, and even if you don't want to talk, I'm here for you, willing to play whatever it is you want or watch whatever movie you throw at me, even if it is about a prehistoric parasite. All I want is to see you happy and content with your life, and when you're not, I'll be here to give you something to lean on, even if you don't want to admit it.

Thank you for everything...

[ittousei]

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You probably won't see this because it fucktarded early, but you're my little sister. I honestly didn't really understand what family meant until recently, and I've realized you and I are a lot closer than what me and my older sister have ever been. We've laughed together, cried together, and shared so many memories, I don't regret any of it. We have our times where we don't talk, but when we do, it's like nothing's changed, and it never will. I'm so close to you and you're honestly one of my best friends. You've pulled me through so much, and I hope I can do the same for you. I adore you, Boo.

[ittousei]

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I've gotten so attached to you over this past, what, two weeks? I honestly don't regret it. We may not know each other well, but you make me laugh and smile whenever you're around. We're kinda alike from what I've seen, and I can tell you've had a rough time, but I just want you to know that no matter what, I'll be here for you if you need to vent. I'm not the greatest person when it comes to giving advice, but I'm here to listen and give you a shoulder to lean on, okay? You're amazing and beautiful, never forget that.

[ittousei]

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I'm confused. I honestly don't know why, but I am. I'm torn about a lot of things, but one thing I'm sure of is how loyal you are and how much you've done for me. You don't know how much it means to me to know that you're there for me no matter what, and I'd do anything to do the same for you. I just...I don't know if I'm the best thing for you, especially with how much you've gone through in this past year. I want nothing but happiness for you, it's what you deserve. You may think that you're not this great person, but I see otherwise. You're kind, sweet, passionate, creative, and absolutely brilliant. I'm lucky to have you in my life.

[ittousei]

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She would be proud of you, yanno? It's an odd way to start, but it's really true. You're such a beautiful person inside and out, and honestly, you're one of the reasons why I've pulled through so many times. If it weren't for your encouraging asks or your little drabbles, I'd probably be in a much darker place right now. You've made me smile so many times, and I honestly don't know how to thank you. Your words, your actions, they shine so bright...there's so much I want to say to you, but everything is so jumbled up, I don't know how to put it into words. All I hear is this mantra saying "Thank you" and I can't get passed that. I admire you so much, and I know so many good things are coming your way...I love you, you sweet and beautiful being. I love you lots.