@naftis cast sending : “ why is it so difficult for you to believe that you deserve to be protected? “
𝚆𝙰𝚁𝙼 𝙽𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙰𝙸𝚁 𝙾𝙵 𝙽𝙸𝙲𝙾𝙳𝚁𝙰𝙽𝙰𝚂, familiar and comforting. tiefling sat upon the shore , shoes cast aside , letting cold waters brush against her as wash in and out. overhead an endless expanse of sky , light by stars. under it, jester feels so small. " It's not that I don't want to be protected fjord , but you know how when we all first met? you guys decided i was the cleric. so that means , that i have to look after you guys. " her words prattle on, dancing around his question. she's good at pretending, at playing her role. freckle features give way to the smile she's practiced, the one she knows how to wear so well. hues to shift to him, how he looks so at home , so at ease. fjord had never had any walls with her , not really. and now maybe , she owed him the same.
" i just . . . i'm not pretty like my mama, or strong like yasha or beau. and nott, she's really, really smart. she's the brains when we solve our cases or come up with our plans. " her words are sad , softer, despite the laughter. " and you know, even though i really, really hated avantika? she knew what she wanted fjord, and she went for it. " everything flowing so freely from her now like an endless down pour. " and i'll never be like any of them. i'm just . . . jester." she had tried to squeeze herself into molds of others , to be polished and desirable like her mother, but she would never be the ruby. arm rises, wiping at eyes with embroidered sleeves of her dress. “ and just jester . . . isn’t really worth protecting. i don’t know what i would do, if anything happened to any of you, but especially you fjord, because of me. “










