#natdormerxo

[royalrpg]

The main looks so great!!!! Thank you for putting so much time and care into this group. I <3 every one of you!!!

Aw, Ally, thank you so, so much for saying this, Lizzie really did a great job with the graphics, and Jester and I worked on the pages. We’re so happy with it all! And it means a lot you (and all our members) love this place and make it this awesome little family we are. <3

- Maria

[royalrpg]

I love the new main graphics!!!! Sooo good <3

Thank you, Ally - Lizzie really did great work on our main, and it feels fully autumn-y now!

- Maria

[sosokitharington]

[text] What even is that? I’ve heard people mention it but I thought that was something you only got right after you’ve given birth. What’s going on with you? Why don’t you have your life sorted?

[text] I think they call it baby blues, women can become depressed after a baby’s birth and can’t properly bond with the baby sometimes. Sometimes they cant even take care of themselves. [text] Just a bad breakup.

[sosokitharington]

[text] she is... I know that in my heart but my head isnt there. I don’t know what’s wrong with me Kit and neither did Rich. I let him and Isla down and I hate myself for it, I really do. Talk to someone? They’re going to think I’m absolutely fucking nuts! None of it even makes any sense. Yeah well it feels like a break down as well. Histories just repeating itself at this point, the only difference is there’s a baby caught in the middle of this nightmare.

[text] Nat I am no professional but you sound like you have post-partum. Whic is not being nuts just something that is clearly giving you a great deal of stress and with the breakup, I mean it may help you to talk to someone whose been there or a professional, not me. I don’t have my own life sorted right now.

[sosokitharington]

[text] Seeing her everyday is hard okay? It’s not as easy as it sounds. I don’t know what to do with her. I just keep her alive and that’s it.. that all. It’s not this beautiful magical thing like everyone always says it is. I’m broken and she’s better off with a Richard, alright? He wanted kids and is a great father. I don’t think I was cut out for that wife or mother role. I couldn’t do it.. I couldn’t be what they needed. Isla is better off, trust me.

[text]  I mean you birthed her she is still a part of you. Nat maybe you should talk to someone about this.  If not for her then maybe yourself because I will always love you like a sister and be painfully honest with you but you sound like somone on the verge of a mental breakdown my darling. This all isnt healthy. 

[sosokitharington]

[text] I don't think we even realized how bad it was. [text] I didn't have much of a choice. He made it clear he wanted Isla and I wasn't about to fight him over it. He's the better choice and the better parent here. He loves her, I couldn't take her from him and then stick her with a Nanny back stage for the next three months. That's Isla's home, I had to be the one to leave so she could stay there and now be raised in a hotel. I get her and Nyra every sunday on my day off.

[text] Nat she’s your daughter though. When she grows up she’s going to want to know you fought for her cause surely Richard will make it a sticking point if he perceives you didnt. Nat I don’t mean to sound harsh or judgemental, but home or not I would want to see my new child every day.

[sosokitharington]

[text] I'm sorry! It happened last week, I haven't really told anyone to be honest. Things just weren't the same after Isla was born. We were in the same room but felt miles apart. We were fighting more, I couldn't really connect with him or Isla and it was just making everything so much worse. One night we just snapped. Everything came out like a flood gate burst open and things were said that neither of us could take back. We ended things and I left that night. That's the gist of it really.

[text] Look I am friends to both of you and I knew there were some issues but not to the obvious extent. I am really sorry to hear that. You just up and left though? I mean what about visitation with Isla?

[sosokitharington]

[text] Before you hear it from someone else... Richard's gone. [text] It's over. [text] He and Isla are at the house if you're looking for him, I'm not sure if he's going to keep it or not. I don't really know much of anything to be honest.

[text] I actually have heard it from elsewhere. Nat I can’t begin to tell you how sorry I am for you. I don’t know what even happened.