#nate does a talking

[not-qualified-for-your-bull]

ooc: having a villain playlist is all fun and games until you hear:

Circe: but everyone’s true colors are revealed in acts of lust ;)

Odysseus: im not sure I follow….

The villains from rainbow rocks: OH WOAH-OH, OH WOAH-OH, YOU DIDNT KNOW THAT YOU FELL-

[lostandfoundthroughspaceandtime]

wait no the onion san ask (the one you answered ooc) was meant to be a joking reference to this Fucking Thing:

ooc: OH SHIT WHOOPS-

What in all the systems is that thing.

-L.E.

[not-qualified-for-your-bull]

ooc: so. Hi.

its been a sec huh?

it’s. It’s been a lot of shit I won’t lie ha.

But I’m back now. I think I’m ready to come back? I want to at least try. I’ll be honest, I haven’t been keeping up with the lore as much lately. So. Yeah.

I have. Kind of a plan? It’s complicated. Basically, Angel is gonna be coming back too, and I’m gonna use them to help get the ball rolling again, and once I’m ready, she’s probably not going to return again, at least not with the same frequency as last time.

more stuff and rambling underneath

One of the reasons I left was due to intense burn out. I felt like I should’ve been bringing the best, well thought out writing into each arc and thread, it. Took too much out of me. Especially seeing as the two people I started out with, the owners of the Tim and Martin blogs, were also getting burnt out and busy. This was supposed to be a silly blog between friends.

and while I do still love the friends and experiences I’ve had, it’s. A lot to keep up with at times. And I haven’t been keeping up those friendships, for which I’m sorry.

after the burn out, I thought things would be better. I thought I was ready to return. I was kinda drifting from tma but that would be fine, I could just bullshit my way through it, as I’ve always done lol.

September, the day of my grandmother’s birthday, I checked the blog of one of the first friends I made form any of my roleplays here on tumblr.

it’s a post made by their brother.

and I found out they died the night before.

it hhard. And it still hurts to talk about.

I’ve been getting better at dealing with grief though, and. Almost a month later, my mom sits me down and tells me my grandfather died.

that, too, hurts, and hit me hard.

I’ve been dealing with. Quite a lot recently. Evidently. Especially since the government wants me dead! Yippee!!

but it’s not all been bad.

some good has come with the bad.

It’s complicated.

and also I’m plural, apparently, lol. Some of the roleplay wasn’t just roleplay as it would turn out sjdjdjdjjd

But I do want to come back. And I want to see if there’s any room for me in any current arcs, if not, totally cool, and if we talk it out first personally, we can see if we can make room or a new arc or what have you.

again, no pressure to anyone and everyone.

But again. I’m back. And I’m glad to be back. Hope to be roleplayinfn again with yall soon.

thanks.

-Dylan/solar

[not-qualified-for-your-bull]

ooc: fuck it, agender Jon.

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Small life update:

I might come back soon bc I think getting burnt out by rps is funner than tormenting myself with trying to freestyle a skirt for a cosplay I’m only gonna wear twice :D

[not-qualified-for-your-bull]

Ooc:

so.....

howdy.

(this one's gonna be kinda long, lot of talk of mental health, tl;dr, I'm long overdue for hiatus and will be taking a break for a bit)

guess who burnt himself out agaiiinnnnn

Who knew when you're on the grind for so long with hardly any real breaks it starts to make you feel like crap.

I feel very guilty.

I have been doing rp's all year since late early February. I created my first rp blog, @windows-nt-4-point-0, right after my birthday.

and it was fun, and I've made a lot of good friends.

but... it's become a lot. It's just a lot ..

no fault of anyone of course.

but the only real times I've taken a "break", have been a), shitty internet/power outage, b), literally not being able to move my arms due to chronic pain, and c), not having any on going threads I needed to reply to/having an empty ask box.

at the end of may, a few weeks after starting this jon blog, I felt too stressed and more obviously (for me) burnt out.

then June hit, and I forgot about pride month, and decided alright, I'll stay for a few more weeks, then at the end of the month I'll slink off into the void for a bit afterwards.

didn't end up happening, I got too wrapped up in well, everything, and also was reminded of disability pride month, the first one I've been able to celebrate! So I stayed.

And even kept going while I had heatstroke back in July.

I kept on going.

and this august wasn't the best for me physically or mentally.

and I've gotten slower at replying and (in my opinion) my responses have sort of... lacked quality.

I want to keep going.

I love doing this!

but... every planned arc I forget about, every thread I forget to reply through, i feel guilt over.

I'm so so sorry for not being able to keep up. But... I'm long over due for a break, a proper one. I've put it off for three whole months.

so, for an indetermended amount of time, this blog will be on hiatus.

I wanted to keep up with arcs I had planned. I still want to do them, but I understand (and fully support) if you can't wait that long and/or go on as planned with other people. I'm just sorry I couldn't do it as well.

I'm sorry, I love y'all, and while I hope,to be back soon, I can't promise that.

it wouldn't be fair to promise that.

I might (very heavy emphasis on MIGHT) be a bit active on my other rp blogs, and will keep all ask boxes open, but for now... I will be putting not-qualified-for-your-bull on the shelf for a little while.

if you see me try to come back (on this blog) without actually saying I'm back (in a post or smth), and it's been like. Idk a day or two after announcing this, feel free to spray me with water like a cat to send me back into the Feel Better Abyss.

[not-qualified-for-your-bull]

ooc: hey y’all gonna be on mini hiatus for a bit, I’ll try to keep up with existing threads, but probably won’t get into any new ones until last next week. Ty for the patience, and I’ll be back as soon as I can