#natgray

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Sad forever

“I want to be an Orca in my next life,” Natsu says suddenly.

It’s midnight and Gray is ready to fall asleep.

He had spent his day with Ultear and Lyon. Since they are all busy with work most of the time, he rarely gets to meet both of them together, so they decided to spend an entire day together at Ultear’s house.

And while Gray really appreciated his moment with his sister and brother, he can’t deny that when he came home a little earlier, he was exhausted. Mostly because he had a fight or two with Lyon and he had to listen to his sister talking about this girl she met last week and the fact that she wanted to treat her to dinner without knowing how to ask.

All he really wants is a good night of sleep now; which is kind of inconvenient when his lover, on the other hand, seems perfectly awake.

Sighing, Gray runs a hand on his face before taking a look at Natsu. The young man is lying next to him, one arm behind his head while the other rests on his stomach, his fingers tapping softly on his bare skin. It’s a little dark around them but since Gray is close enough, he can see that Natsu has his eyes locked on the ceiling, his expression letting Gray know that something is wrong despite the innocent words that Natsu said out a few seconds ago.

And Gray wonders for a moment why he didn’t notice it earlier when he remembers that he barely paid attention to anything once he was passed his door and simply crashed on the couch. It’s Natsu who woke him up to go rest properly in their bed.

Frowning a little, Gray moves one of his hand to the one on Natsu’s stomach, gently sliding his fingers between his.

“Why?” Gray finally asks softly.

“Because they are completely free. To go wherever and do whatever they want. Also, because they are the most badass mammals in the ocean right now. Like, did you know they could kill the white shark? It’s super rare, but scientists actually recorded a few pieces of evidence that it actually happened. It’s totally crazy. I was watching a video about them earlier and babe...they are just wonderful and so precious. It’s—”

Gray decides to let Natsu talk without interrupting. It’s endearing to see him getting so worked up over something he finds an interest in. But while Gray listens to him, he doesn’t miss the sad gleam in his eyes. At some point in his rambling, Natsu takes a shaky breath and finally turns his attention to Gray, eyes shining with unshed tears.

Gray is so familiarised with the situation that he isn’t even confused by the scene. Instead, he moves, so he is now laying on his back and opens his arms. Natsu doesn’t take too long before he lets himself melt into the gentle embrace, hiding his face in the crook of his neck.

Gray says nothing as he kindly wraps his arms around his lover. He can feel Natsu trembling against him.

It’s the second times this month and Gray doesn’t have enough fingers to count all the others that had happened during this year. It’s not something Natsu has control over, so Gray has never held it against him, no matter how many times Natsu tells him he should because he has a fucked-up brain. No matter how many times Natsu shuts him out because he’s too afraid and feels guilty to make Gray go through this.

Life, Gray has learned, isn’t kind and fair for everyone. And while it pains him to see Natsu in this state, he also knows it’s inevitable for him to experience it. He is just glad that he is the one who is able to hold Natsu together when the situation gets like this.

“I hope I’ll be an Orca too then,” he whispers.

His fingers are moving up and down Natsu’s spine. He can feel his warm breath on his neck. He doesn't how much time passed but at some point Natsu is not crying anymore, seeming completely calm. Gray knows he’s not sleeping by the way Natsu’s hand is gripping at his hip. He is fairly certain that he would have a little mark in the morning, but he doesn’t mention it, because he knows that this is Natsu’s way to get a grip on his reality.

He just hopes that he’ll keep feeling real enough so Natsu won’t lose himself to the dark in his mind.

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Thank you to @watcher-ofthe-sky 🧚 for helping me with this one!! You're a sweetheart.

Also this story is kind of personnal, I hope I didn't upset anyone by posting this.

@fuckyeahgratsu

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As some of you requested and told me it could be a good idea if I posted my works on AO3 well.. I decided to take your advice and do it.

This is a list of the different works that I have so far and will be updated as I'll write new stories.

I posted only the drabbles and one shot. The headcanons and aesthetics are only available on the blog.

I thought it'll be easier for you to read it if I classify everything depending on the paring:

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GraTsu :

Twenty Twelve : one shot

Sacred: collection of drabbles, not related

Strawberry cakes and stars : drabble

What a relief we have each other : one shot

Sleep: drabble

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Stingue :

The light in the dark : collection of drabbles

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Stingsu :

Everything starts with you: collection of drabbles

Something I need: one shot

It's okay not to be okay : one shot

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Erzajane :

Truth is: one shot

Mess: drabble

It's easier to let yourself down: drabble

Demons: drabble

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Erlu :

Sleep: drabble

Strawberry cakes and stars : collection of drabbles

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RoRay:

Lost and found : drabble

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Jelray:

It's cold in heaven : drabble

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Jerik:

Tough love : collection of drabbles

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Sorano/ Brandish:

Coffee: drabble

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Lucana :

Doubts : drabble

What a relief we have each other : drabble

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Gray/Sting :

Attention : drabble

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LuLi:

It's okay not to be okay : one shot

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Natsu & Lucy & Erza & Gray:

we are family : drabbles

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The only thing I forgot (because of course I forgot something) is to credit every single person who helped me until now..so just to make things clear I don't take the entire credit for the works I post here. There's always someone behind me, helping me with whatever I decide to do.

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"When are you coming home?"

"I don't know.."

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"I miss you."

"I know. I miss you too."

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"I can't sleep without you."

"I don't have the strength to wake up without you."

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"I love you."

"Yeah..I love you too sweetheart."

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@fuckyeahgratsu

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Angst/Fluff prompt part 2. Gratsu + No. 102 (My brain was screaming Angst! Angst! Angst! But explained to myself that Oceane will kill us for making her write so much pain. So, here is a fluff!) ^u^

Hi sweetheart ! Here your little fluffy story ! I really Hope you'll like it ! Let me know what you think of it! It was fun to write ! ❤️

"Remind me why we are here again?" Gray asks breathing heavily, as he follows Natsu.

"Why? Tired already?" Natsu turns his face to him, a smile on his lips.

"No!" Gray retorts almost immediately. "It's just that it's getting dark and we’re in the middle of a forest; I'm pretty sure Erza will kill us if she founds out we're not back at the camp yet."

Natsu comes to a stop in order to keep his full attention on his boyfriend.

"I already told you before we left, it's a surprise so just trust me! Plus I already told Erza everything so she won’t say anything. Now would you just follow me and shut up thatpretty mouth of yours?"

Gray can't help but smile at that, considering teasing Natsu for a brief moment, but then his eyes meet his boyfriend's and he decides against it.

Natsu is looking at him with so much love that Gray can clearlydistinguish the excitement shining in his eyes about whateverhe has in mind. He has surprisingly managed to keep everything a secret until now, which is kind of a miracle in itself, since his boyfriend usually can't keep anything tohimself.

Deciding to indulge his boyfriend, Gray nods. Natsu reaches a hand for him to take and Gray doesn't hesitate before sliding his fingers between Natsu's as they start to walk again.

This time Gray doesn't say anything, instead enjoying theirsurroundings and the warmth of Natsu's hand in his. With thesetting sun, there's a sort of magic in the forest, thanks to the few rays of sunshine piercing through the branches overhead. He can hear the birds singing, returning to their homes before night completely takes over and it's in instances like this that Gray can understand why Natsu chose a house in thewoods. Due to his abilities, he assumes that Natsu can hear much more than him. About to voice that thought, Gray startles when Natsu suddenly stops, barely managing to stop himself from bumping into Natsu's back.

"We're here!"

Gray frowns a little bit as he slides to stand next to Natsu, so he can figure out what "here" means. And... his breath hitches.

In front of them there's a little stream, whilst on the shore a tent is sat. From where he is standing, Gray can clearly see the little lacrima shining from the tent, so they wouldn’t be in complete darkness  when night would comes. And finally a few meters from the tent, a table is set and Gray can't help but smile, aghast, as his eyes spot the vase with twin roses andthe little basket that is set on one of the two chairs, probablycovering their dinner and other things that Gray can only imagine.

"This is why you disappeared earlier on..." Gray says softly, as he finally turns his gaze to meet Natsu’s.

The boy is looking at him with expectant eyes and by the way he is biting his lips, Gray can tell that he is nervous. Grayprobably would’ve made fun of him if his first instinct wasn't to kiss him. His boyfriend relaxes as soon as their lips meet, warming Gray up.

When they parted, Gray brings a hand to cup Natsu's cheek,caressing the shell of tan skin.

"I'm not complaining,” Gray hums, “But what’s the occasion?"

Natsu slides his arms around Gray waist, a slight blush slowlylighting up his face.

"W-well we've been on the road for a week, now... and the girls and Happy are always around… I-I just miss you…” Natsu explains, sheepishly. “I mean I know that we’re always together and we’ve slept together every night and all but... you're the only person I wanted to be with tonight…” He takes a breath. “J-Just the two of us."

The statement makes Gray's heart go just a little bit faster. It was true that they had barely gotten the chance to be alonesince the beginning of the week, and despite the fact that Gray adores the rest of their team, he can't deny that he has missed Natsu too.

Unable to find the words to express how much joy this has brought him, Gray simply put his arms around Natsu too,urging him closer, he hides his face in the crook of Natsu's neck.

The knowledge that Natsu doesn’t need his words to understand his feelings, as Natsu presses a kiss to his shoulder, spreads more comfort throughout him than he expected from such a simple gesture.

And thank you @grayserigala for the beta reading ! You're lovely and you did a great job this! ❤️

@fuckyeahgratsu

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Can I request another short fic? Because you're writing is so good, gah!! Gray & Lyon + "I know you can't remember how to shine." (preferably platonic) Thanks so much! <3

Here you go darling! I hope you'll like it. I don't know what happened.. I wanted something funny but well.. this is what you got.. tell me if it's bad or not ! 🌼

Prompt: "I know you can't remember how to shine"

Everything is quiet.

Which is surreal because usually, his surroundings are so loud that sometimes he can barely hear himself think.

But when he passes through the door, everything is just so quiet. And somehow this is when he realises that he is now alone.

He is not welcomed by loving arms around his neck and a kiss on his lips. No warm body is pressed against his and a soft voice whispering "welcome home, babe." There is no bright smile and fingers lacing with his, to lead him to the couch.

No, it's only silence and he doesn't know what to make of it. He doesn't know if he should keep going into the house instead of staying at the doorstep. He doesn't know if he should pretend like everything is normal when everything actually seems shattered in a million pieces.

He doesn't know anything anymore.

"Gray."

There's a hand on his shoulder now, and he jolts because he wasn't prepared for the touch and because it kind of burned him. Not in a good way like it used to. This time it feels wrong and he wants to move and scream that he doesn't want that touch. But instead, he lets it happen, like a broken doll.

"If you don't want to come in we can go to my place. You don't have to go through this alone."

But the thing is.. he is alone. So he turns his head to Lyon to tell him just that, but all that comes out of his mouth is a sob. The next thing he knows, there's an arm around him and his head is placed on a shoulder. It's not the same embrace that he is used to and it doesn't feel quite right, but he is being held and it feels like that it's the only thing that is keeping him from falling to the ground.

"I know you can't remember how to shine without him, but one day it'll get easier. I'll make sure of it, little brother."

He knows that Lyon means well with these words, but all it does is remind him a little more that from now on, he will have to keep going in a world without Natsu.

And he doesn’t know how to do that.

Thank you to the sweet @wizardwithbrushandpen for doing this amazing beta job ! You're a total sweetheart !

@fuckyeahgratsu @gratsu-x-natray

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Mornings with you

He wakes up to lazy fingers tracing patterns on his back. It makes him dizzy and he would have fallen asleep again if his ears didn’t catch a soft voice humming a song he didn’t know. It’s endearing and sweet, and he can’t help the smile forming on his lips as he shifts to bring the body next to him closer to his.

There is a pair of arms around him now and a head is resting on a chest, just where his heart is beating.

“We should wake up soon, or Erza will be pissed off.” Gray says.

And Natsu growls, lifting his head to hide it on the crook of Gray’s neck, where he can feel all the warm coming from his lover.

“Fuck Erza” is what Natsu says in return.

Gray laughs. It’s a beautiful sound and Natsu is not afraid to admit that he craves for it.

“I’m going to tell her that.” Gray jokes.

“No you won’t” Natsu mumbles. “If you do, I’m breaking up with you.”

Natsu doesn’t have to look at Gray to know that the ice mage rolled his eyes at that. These words doesn’t mean anything, they are empty and Gray knows that.

Natsu moves his body, so he can face his lover, and a tender smile appears on his lips. Gray is barely awake, his eyes still half closed and he seems so calm. Natsu knows that if it wasn’t for that mission, he would have slept in.

The pinkette brings a hand to Gray’s cheek and caresses the skin.

“I love you” Natsu murmurs.

He can see Gray is blushing just like the first time he said it and Natsu can’t help but laugh at that. It earns him a pinch on the forehead but he doesn’t complain. Not when a few seconds later there are lips against his and a cool hand on his hip, caressing him softly.

“I love you too” Gray answers, voice low.

And just like the first time he heard it, Natsu beams at him and kisses him a little harder.

Thank you to @gaymirajane for the beta work! ❤️Also this is a gift for @mdelpin ! I hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it !

@fuckyeahgratsu

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Hey you! Would you do #27 with gratsu? <3

Hi love ! I really hope you'll like it ! 🌼 It was fun to write !

Gray knew he was in trouble the moment Natsu sat next to him, sliding an arm around his waist and giving him a kiss on the cheek. It was not the physical contacts in themselves that made Gray nervous, it was more the way he could feel Natsu bouncing next to him as if he was trying to contain his excitement.

But Gray decides to do nothing about it, hoping that Natsu would calm down and whatever he has on his mind would go away. So he focuses on the conversation Rogue and Sting are having, the two of them sitting just in front of him. He doesn’t understand a single thing, but it was always better than giving his full attention to his boyfriend.

This little peace doesn’t last long though, because after a moment he can feel Natsu's warm breath against his ear, while the arm around him tightens a little. He is pretty sure that his heart is about to burst out of his chest, as he suddenly feels hot.

“Gray...”

Natsu’s voice is low and his breath smells like coconut and Gray is almost certain that he’s been drinking that weird liquor that Lucy brought at the little party they’re having.

“I love you!”

This isn’t the first time that Gray hears this statement; Natsu likes to make sure the world knows about his feelings for Gray, but this time it feels a little different. There’s something more in it, and when Gray finally makes the mistake to take a look at his boyfriend, he understands what the sentiment behind it truly means.

The green eyes are shining, thanks to the alcohol and the little lights flashing around them. It’s a little dark, but Gray can easily see the blush on Natsu’s cheeks. But what gives his boyfriend thoughts away, is the smug smile he has on his lips, showing his perfectly white and sharp teeth.

“No,” is what Gray says immediately.

“What, you don’t love me?” Natsu asks with a fake pout.

“You know that’s not what I meant. I said no for whatever you have in mind. It can wait.”

“But I didn’t even say anything apart from sharing my undying love for you!”

“You think I’m an idiot? We’ve been together for years and I know that look on your face! There’s a difference between your ‘I love you’ and ‘I love you!’. You won’t have me this time. No way!”

Natsu lets out a little laugh before he kisses the tip of Gray's nose.

“Come on, babe. It’s nothing bad I promise.”

“Last time you said that I had a red mark on my arm for two weeks because you decided it was a good idea to have a piece of Erza’s cake. And I was the only one to endure that.” Gray argues.

“Well, I’m her little brother, what did you expect exactly?”

Gray glares at him, hoping that Natsu would drop the subject but of course, things weren’t that easy.

“Anyway, that has nothing to do with that. I swear no harm will be done to you… If we are discrete!”

“How is that supposed to make me change my mind!?”

And then, there is a hand travelling down his hip to his thigh. He feels Natsu coming closer as lips are pressed gently behind his ear, just in that little spot that always makes him melt. He takes a look around him, trying to find some help, but Rogue and Sting are gone, and no one is close to them enough to make a good distraction.

A little sigh escapes his lips as he closes his eyes. He is such a weak man when his boyfriend is like this.

“If we get caught, I’m blaming you Natsu.”

The body pressed against his is suddenly not here any more and when Gray finally opens his eyes, Natsu is up, his hand in front of him for Gray to take.

“Let’s go, babe!”

And when Natsu smiles this way, the only thing Gray can do is to take his warm fingers and he lets Natsu lead them through the crowd, as he tries to find a place where they can feel like they are the only ones left in the world.

Thank you @wizardwithbrushandpen for the beta work ! You're a sweetheart for agreeing to do this on such a short time ! ❤️

@fuckyeahgratsu