#nathan ivanov

[gingericywolf]

Happy birthday Yuriy!!!

The way I can still draw him without references is sure something.

He is probably wondering how in hell he did his hair when he was young

Also kai cameo

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Mayblade 2023 Day 6: Restrain

Choosing whether to spend a day in nature or at the mall for many could prove a difficult choice, for Nathan Ivanov certainly was not. He would choose his horses and nature without thinking twice, even if sometimes it meant going alone, and very often it happened, but today was not one of those days, his parents had happily accepted his invitation to go for a ride with him, although his father Yuriy, despite the years, was not yet so experienced, unlike him and Wolf that were great and usually ended up leaving him behind, often hearing some curses because he ended up falling or getting stuck somewhere, causing his laughter and those of Wolf. It was one of those few moments when he felt the connection he had with his parents without having to show it; Nath was not good with emotions or affection in general, even in situations where he wanted to prove that he cared, always holding back or feeling stuck, barely able to say half of what he really wanted to express, often resulting impassive, no matter how much that was the last thing he wanted. This happened not only with positive emotions, but also with negative ones, only making his appearance colder and more rational than he really was. The bond he had with his parents was a silent one, where most of the time they didn’t really need words to understand each other, helping each other came naturally, like an automatism, like a pack, and he didn’t mind, but he wanted to express his affection for them more, not always feeling bound by the limits that he had imposed himself.

Nath was lost in his thoughts as he enjoyed the sun warming his skin letting out the first freckles and the sound of the grass being trampled by his horse’s hooves when he heard Wolf complain about a bee circling around him without the intention of leaving him alone, but he didn’t want to hit her, she was just trying to do her job and behind he heard Yuriy laughing at his beloved, "It wasn’t the best of ideas to put a shirt with flower prints to come ride darling, that bee adores you." Wolf began to puff annoyed "I didn’t remember it had the prints!! And when I realized it I couldn’t bother changing. Oh come on, get out!" Nath laughed a little while thinking of some solution "Maybe if I pick up a real flower, it could forget about the prints and leave him alone, mhm" Nath thought as he sped up to look for a flower that could attract the little insect away from his parent. Yuriy looked at him confused for a moment but then looked back at Wolf, still giggling. Wolf looked at him annoyed. "Could you stop laughing and give me a hand?!"

"I’m sorry, honey, but this is really too funny not to, and you think a bee would listen to me? Oh little bee please leave my beloved alone, there are millions of flowers around let him free to live, please?" said the redhead with a more acute and dramatic voice and then laughing again, Wolf kept his annoyed eyes for a few more seconds, trying to stop laughing to avoid giving him a win, but in the end he let an amused smile slip out from the scene established by his husband, and especially because he noticed that man was slipping slowly from the saddle. Then turned his view in front of him, seeing Nath who had gotten off his horse and was tinkering in the middle of the flowers and made a confused face, tilting his head on one side, avoiding the bee by a hair, bee that in the meantime had been reached by a colleague, and now there were two of them wanting to feed on fake flowers. "Oh come on. Really?! I’m not a flower!! Nath what are you doing here?" Nath let out a slight laugh as he heard Wolf’s tone "Admiring the flowers??" and he held another laugh for the look that he threw at him but then returned to focus on the flowers "Which will be more suitable among all these. Mhmm... but I wouldn’t want to tear them..." he looked between the flowers and Wolf and thought of the most suitable solution "Fruity Wolf!! Come here, I think I have a solution to get rid of the bees!!" Wolf quickly took notice and dismounted from the horse, reaching him in the middle of the flowers "So? What solution?!" "You stay... just here in the middle, for a few seconds, okay? Trust me and don’t ask questions." He said in his usual pragmatic tone while observing the bees, hoping they would be attracted by the real flowers.

Wolf was about to mumble something because he did not understand what his son had in mind but when he saw that it was no longer the object of the bees' preferential attention, attracted by the real flowers, that only now he noticed, he came out with a "Ah... was it that simple?" Nath smiled, "Well yes, it was enough to give them a flower more interesting than you, more fruity," he said, "I don’t think these flowers are more fruity than yours truly, but thank you, my darling! Now, you ok for a hug?" Wolf jumped into the arms of his son, who supported him without problems and returned the hug letting go a longer laugh than usual and holding the parent in the embrace. He also wanted to say something more, but he got the usual block that prevented him and let the words die in his throat, despite the need to tell them, to hear them come out of his lips, So he just squeezed the parent more, hoping to pass on what he meant by gestures, it was the only way he could communicate something at that moment, that lasted a few moments before the two were distracted by Yuriy trying to pull his horse forward to reach them, but the animal was more interested in the leaves of the tree he was reaching for. Wolf did not have time to tell him that he had to give a stronger tug that he found himself watching with Nath Yuriy swearing and falling on the opposite side of the saddle, ending face in the grass,the horse giving him an unimpressed look.

Wolf and his son looked at each other for a few seconds in silence, stunned, before bursting into a loud laugh at the scene; the years passed but it never stopped being hilarious. "This is the karma Wolfyboy, now beg the bees to help you get up," Wolf said with laughter as the redhead rose back up, mumbling and spitting the grass, "Oh Honey, you’re always so nice that you make nettles seem less stinging." 

Wolf gave him a tongue out, amused,  as an answer and Nath couldn’t help but smile as he watched "They age, but they never change ahaha," he thought, "Oh, you’re so much fun, clumsy and rambling that I wouldn’t trade you for any other parent in the world, you’re the best in the world." He said laughing before realizing that he had both parents' eyes on him... what did he say odd? Wolf got those tender puppy eyes and hugged him again in a vise.

"Our son told us that he loves us. Did you hear Love?! Aaaaaa!" Yuriy smiled and joined them "Yes darling I heard, I heard very well, and it was really pleasant." Yuriy hugged Nath in turn and the latter found himself more confused than before... "But I didn’t say... that?" He said, "You said it your way, and we’re okay with it, we love you, little wolf." "You’ll tell us sooner or later, but for now you’re so sweet like this" added Wolf and Nath could only smile more, and return the embrace as he could, being practically stuck, but still feeling a small chain less in his emotions; Step by step and slowly he would be free to express his feelings as he really wanted, and not feeling stuck by his own limitations. 

He collected all the love his parents gave him at that moment, in that embrace that did not seem to want to end so soon, until Yuriy came out with "Who arrives first on the other side of the hill tonight does not have to clean up the house?" And he walked to his steed, Nath and Wolf looking at him, "Oh honey, you’ll never win in a horse race."

"Definitely, Da-HEY IS NOT FAIR LIKE THIS' said as he climbed fast on his horse because Yuriy had already started galloping towards the hill. "Ivanov senior!! If I catch you!!" Wolf said, galloping away, followed by Nath just behind, in pursuit of Yuriy. 

In the countryside you could hear the fast hoof sound of the galloping horses, the air of freedom and the laughter of the three as they tried to race each other, running free and without any thought, feeling happiness. That night, despite the race being won by Nathan, they finally cleaned and set the three of them together, between jokes and laughs, ending up falling asleep all together in bed while watching some documentary, and Nath could not really wish for parents other than them, a family different from this, falling asleep last, with his head on Wolf’s chest and embraced by Yuriy. He was happy and he knew it.

[gingericywolf]

It's that time of the year where I draw self indulgent art of my bey kid and dad yuriy content

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Letters To Myself Part 2

Heyo people! I know it’s been 5 months since the first letter of this small project that was written to the Yuriy of the past.

I leave here the link at the first of the letters in case you want to read it again or refresh your memory.

This is the second of three letters I had in mind and it is written to both the Yuriy of the present and the past. It very much takes a AU that was made by me and a friend of mine so many of the events may not coincide with the headcanon or the general ideas about Yuriy, but I hope you like it anyway!

Present Yuriy

5th of July 2022

I guess I haven’t exactly been a diligent patient given the five months between this letter and the first one, to the Yuriy kid, who I apologize for keeping him waiting all this time. It’s finally time for you to hear what your sacrifices have brought.

I'm writing this letter... Well or at least I try, always with Kai to assist me at my side, to prevent my dyslexia does bad jokes eheh, but let’s get back to us; I’m working on this letter in the garden of my house, in the shade of a gazebo, while I watch my son play with his cousins by the pool, he’s so sweet and he’s growing up so fast, he’s already over two years old you know, little Yuriy, and I’m giving him the childhood that you couldn’t have... or at least I’m trying, being a father when you haven’t had one for a long time isn’t easy, sometimes I think I’ll never be the perfect father, but I’m doing my best to never become like my father was before I decided to escape from home.

Oh yeah, my son, right, his name is Nathan. I’m really in love with that little guy, you know, he looks like you and Mom, who unfortunately didn't have time to meet him... Yes, because I granted your desire to find her, but life played a trick on us and took her away too soon and now she’s one of the brightest stars in the firmament... I miss her very much, but I know she’s watching over us, especially on Nathan.

That little wolf, It would be obvious to say that it’s one of the best things that has happened to me in my life; when I picked him up for the first time I can’t even explain well how I felt... It was a feeling of full happiness, as I had never experienced it, a happiness still different from the normal one, that I continue to feel every day when he runs towards me and calls me dad, when he hugs me and even when he does the tantrums, or he looks at me with his big green eyes and his toothless smile to show me a toy, as in this moment while I am writing; It reminds me when you looked at mom, little Yuriy.

He likes to dance, you know? Every time I put on my toes and I have to dance, he wants to do it too, his mother and I were forced to take him already the first ballet shoes, because he wants to be like me eheh... and I admit that seeing him jumping on the stage near me, fills me with pure joy, I’m his great hero, he wants to have my own haircut too, you know? I can’t cut my hair without his permission, otherwise he’s pouting on me all day, like he did when we didn’t get him a ball from the hotel machine in America, but he’s lovely even with his little pout.

I think you’re wondering, me of the past, if there’s anyone I’m sharing the effort and joy of raising that little pest. Well yes, there is one person, and I’m very much in love with them, just to tell you eheh.

I always thought that I would dedicate my life totally to work and career, and that I would not have any relationship for the rest of my life. Instead, life decided to surprise me and change my plans, turning them upside down (I’m Kai, a small insert to say that the fate that made them meet is me, just a clarification).

This person is with Nathan the person I love most in the world; I really think it was love at first sight, from the first moment I saw them in that video of a simple battle of beyblade, something inside me had turned on, but I hadn’t realized it yet, I was a bit idiot and not really used to love; I realized it only that night in that snowy forest, when those hypnotic green eyes are lost in mine (still think they are the most beautiful I’ve ever seen).

There I started to realize that I had ended up in something bigger than myself, that I couldn’t control, and for me that I have to have everything under control was complicated, but I had a feeling that what I felt was corresponded, so I followed my instincts and I let that feeling flow, that emotion, that at the time I didn’t even know how to decipher... I also took a punch in the face for my choice, but I never regretted it.

We’ve been through a lot since February 2019... moments of darkness, of silence, anger, pain and fear of getting lost for the misunderstandings of our characters, so similar, so proud and stubborn, also because life is not quiet on principle; even in the blackest period I never thought to abandon them and blow it all up, because with their bright green eyes that shine every time they see me or our son, his long shaggy hair that move in the wind and have a home scent, their rare smile that when it appears, illuminates even the darkest nights; its unavoidable presence which without the room would be a little more empty, the taste of his kisses (tastes of chocolate eheh) his clear skin full of scars, like mine, to be filled with kisses and gentle caresses... I don’t know where to put a dot, so I put it here, even if I’m not done.

I could go on and on just to say that even when they fall asleep or play with our son, and I see the happiness and peace in their face, I feel like I did the right thing to follow that instinct of mine, to believe they were the right person for me, with which to create something and be able to live in a brighter future than I had always imagined. That person... that from here on I will start to call Wolf, they made me want to believe in dreams, in love...and that something beautiful maybe there was waiting for me if I had opened my eyes, if I had totally let myself be carried away, if I had started to live, to take what life owed me... And I did, and I’m still doing it, little Yuriy, even for you, because you deserved it. You know, Wolf and I also got married eheh, this September will be our second anniversary, time flies really fast...already two years... two really wonderful years, where I feel fulfilled and lucky to have them by my side, even if I don’t tell them very often, even though I’m a touchy chronic, stubborn and proud, and I should do it more often, but I could never really go on without knowing that I have him by my side, even when I’m not the best of husbands or people, and they would really do well to tell me to go to hell, but if they sent me, I’d find a way to emerge from hell to get back to them, because it’s true, I’m not the best in the world for expression of feelings and their management, but I love them, and I would also like to apologize more often for my stubborn behavior.

Hell, little Yuriy, I’ve run out of you with my honeyed chatter, and Kai next to me is laughing, but he’s happy. He’s happy because he found peace with someone he cares very much, who is the same person I married, just to show you how important Wolf is to this big family.

Yeah, 'cause, you know, I really have a big family now, made up of a lot of people that I never thought I’d have a friendship with, like Rei Kon, for example, I have a lot of nephews who calls me uncle and I admit it’s weird, but it makes me feel happy, so that’s okay. I’m studying at a dance academy and I danced in two shows of them this year. The teachers told me that I was really good, and I won a scholarship to continue studying on a year abroad, and at 26yo it’s a really great achievement. I chose Ireland as the place to do it, although Wolf would have preferred Scotland but in the end they are happy anyway, and we hope that Nathan will have fun too and will enjoy this adventure. I’m a little scared but I’m ready, I’ll follow my instincts one more time and we’ll see what they make me live.

The Yuriy of the present is so pleased with his life, with what he has achieved, small and great achievements, that he has partially managed to make peace with himself and his demons, with whom he now goes arm in arm a little more often, even if every now and then they pull a few shots behind him and make him fall; he has wonderful friends to whom they have added new ones, gets out more, socializes more, social batteries allowing eheh, is also one of the most beloved daddies of Nath’s kindergarten, his Wolf is a little jealous, but this red wolf is totally in love with them and they have nothing to fear.

Dance is really bringing me great joys and satisfactions, it makes me feel free and carefree, like probably not even the beyblade has ever fully done; I say really thanks to the beyblade for all that he has given me; victories, defeats, friends, enemies, travels around the world, the chance to survive and above all, to have me meet the love of my life and the mother of my children, yes, because I do not want to stop at one. I thank the bey for the strong emotions he made me feel and for the marks he left on my skin, which contributed to being the man I am now, but it’s time to leave the stadium to my little heir, our little Nathan, if he wants to do it. In my present now there is dance, the lights of a stage or a venue, trying to convey emotions to people in another way, through myself.

Yuriy wasn’t good at talking and he’s not even good at 26 now, but dance has made up for this problem; he helped him come out as a demisexual, Let him share the scene with his buddies and let him tell his son and his Wolf how much he loves them.

Thank you beyblade, mom, thanks also to the bad experiences that life has put in front of me, thanks to old and new friends, thanks to my big family, to dance, to Nathan, to the person I love. Thank you all and everything for building and bringing the Yuriy of the present here. Because the Yuriy who's writing is still a pain in the ass, but I love him a little bit more.

Little Yuriy, see? It was really worth it all. From start to now.

I look at the me of the future from afar and I don’t know what to say to him, but I guess I’ll have time to think about it.

Now I go to my son and Wolf, they’re calling me.

Yuriy, you’re strong. Remember. Always.

See you soon.

[gingericywolf]

Back with the self indulgent self-ship stuff and Dad Yuriy content

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Some very self center art ( as in art that is made only for me and that no one cares about probably, I forgot the correct words, brain is lagging ) sketches that i did yesterday, feel free to ignore

This makes me so happy (and also want to cry)

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So mayblade Day 8: Sleep

Or more like lack of it.

I call this: When your 2 year old and your spouse pet snake who has probably forgot about being a diunarl species decide that Nigth Time is best play time, the red lights from the electric thing bothers you, and the little runt of a cat, who usually spends time with his brother at Brooklyn's house, has decided to use your hand as a pillow so you can't move. And somehow your spouse is still able to sleep through this and drooling all over the pillows, but you don't want to wake them because you also know they too have a wrecked sleep schedule so you let them sleep.

Yuriy doesn't know when he last sleeped between is general insomnia and... this..and he has work in the morning, he is kind of reconsidering his life choices. Yet he is happy. He also knows it could be worse. No, he does not Want to know what is going to go in the other tank that is getting prepared on the top shelf. He really does Not Want to Know.

If this seems very specific it's because it's based on a roleplay story.

Bonus Yuriy's face from the sketch because I liked it

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I may be slightly late

Enjoy some dad Yuriy sketches