#navy scum

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

<Ring ring. Ring ring.>

CASPIAN!!! how are you!!? :D

-Gillion

Oh shit-

Hey Gillion.. uh..

-Caspian looks around as he’s in the middle of the fucking undersea-

…could be worse. Sorry I haven’t called in a while, I’ve been a bit busy.

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

There are children in your tribe? There are children on the other ships.

…

S-shit… I didn’t know that when- ugh.. I’m such a fucking moron….

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

So any crew would have been fine? Any crew you could have grown attached to then stabbed in the back when you were done?

How preventable problems seem when you can look back on them

…

Ok- shut the fuck up. The end goal was to stop a rebellion- not to just fuck with random pirate crews. I was placed on Lizzie’s for that.

I know this is my fault, I’m well aware. I know I’m just Navy scum- no better than my sis-… no better than Lizzie’s enemies. Because at the end of the day, that’s what I am.

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

How do you expect to also leave your crew for dead?

Lizzie, one of the strongest pirates in all of Mana, who trusts you with her life,

Rudith, John, the rest of your crew they trust you

The people you’ve inspired to lash out against unfair navy rule with your revolution

Are their lives worth less? Who’s life matters more, Caspian?

…

How do you expect me to choose?! Lizzie is the best fucking Captain I’ve seen- there’s no way she’ll go down without a fight. John is one of the most devoted people I’ve seen- Rudith- they’re so fucking kind…

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

Whatever you choose, either way somebody gets hurt.

Your crew or your family?

Why even join in the first place if you end up so hopeless and miserable?

I didn’t know it’d be like this! Call me ignorant, but this was all for my tribe’s safety.

No matter what I fucking do people get killed- and I know this. There are children in my tribe, how do you expect me to leave them for dead?! I know I’m scum, and I’ll pay the price for it…

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

Your captain is fond of you, Rudith is fond of you

But its not you, is it? Its this mask you’ve put up.

One day, you’ll betray them and it will be the worst mistake of your life, won’t it?

Because I know you’ve grown fond of them right back, haven’t you.

Its almost pitiable, if you weren’t still planning on betrayal. Navy

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Lizzie is strong… she’ll probably kill me first….I- plans have already been made. I’ll stick to them… I have to…

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

Don’t want to think about what?

How if you were a real pirate you wouldn’t have to feel such guilt? How you wouldn’t have to live every day fearing for your cover being blown?

How something beautiful could’ve blossomed with the medic if you weren’t a traitor to your ship and your captain?

Shut up. Shut up shut the fuck up.

I- stop it- it doesn’t matter- it shouldn’t matter. Don’t bring Lizzie up. Rudith is already enough to think about…

[caspian-the-one-and-only]

Ooc: if a question wants to be specifically answered by Caspian just add that on. In Canon Gimli would have sneaked down to the cellar and let Caspian use the conch. :]