#naxjournal

[naxxx-y]

im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it im going to do it it will be over it will be over it will be over it will be over it will be over

[naxxx-y]

can't wait for the day my plan falls into place and i can finally make my mother regret everything

[naxxx-y]

cw: lowkey a little horny posting but mostly just lonely lesbian rambling

i came off of my birth control and i think my body is readjusting to the hormones.. TT

i just want a girlfriend who will wear a scent because she knows i like it

i just want a girlfriend who will learn the drop pop candy choreo with me

i just want a girlfriend who will be the ashe to my angela

i just want a girlfriend who will play with my fingers when we hold hands

i just want a girlfriend who will fall asleep on call while we watch youtube videos together

i just want a girlfriend who will send me virtual kisses after we've already said our goodnights

i just want a girlfriend who will talk to me no matter how quiet i get

i just want a girlfriend who will hold me so tight in her arms, as though my insides would spill for she let go

i just want a girlfriend who notices the quiver in my voice when she does something that i like

i just want a girlfriend who will let me play with her hair while we listen to our music

i just want a girlfriend who will make me laugh so much my face hurts

i just want a girlfriend who let me mark her, in places known to others and places only i can see

i just want a girlfriend that my cat loves

i just want a girlfriend who will send shivers across my skin with featherlight touches

i just want a girlfriend who gets so flustered by me that she loses her words

i just want a girlfriend who will match outfits profile pictures and video game characters with me

i just want a girlfriend who will jump into my arms and bury her face into my neck when startled

i just want a girlfriend who doesnt even have to try to get me all hot and bothered, but she does still try

i just want a girlfriend who will never make me feel ugly or fat

i just want a girlfriend who inspires me to draw

i just want a girlfriend who will kiss my tears away

i just want a girlfriend that i can be bold with

i just want a girlfriend who will text me while we're in the same room

i just want a girlfriend who will make me feel safe

is that too much to ask?

[naxxx-y]

i am completely and utterly alone

[naxxx-y]

when i tell you i was just scrolling tt and then this girl came onto my page and my brain immediately locked the fuck in

i'm not even hungry anymore

i WILL be skinny again

[naxxx-y]

tw: $h

it is taking absolutely everything in me not to pick up that razor

like genuinely my cats being on me are the only reason i haven't because i don't want to disturb them

[naxxx-y]

update

i took care of it ദ്ദി◝ ⩊ ◜.ᐟ