Hey I'm tired and rambling, welcome.
I feel so bad yet so happy at the same time. A part of me is saying that I'm basically wasting my time and that I'm not really needed anywhere while at the same time I feel really comfortable in my skin for the first time in literally MONTHS. I should draw, I should get better, I should do my math homework, I should probably practice with my motorcycle bc I suck and the test is due this month. But no, time flies and in the end the only thing I have done the whole day was reading and watching TV and I feel like shit for that. But I also feel comfortable in my shittiness. Is that normal? I had plans today: finish that drawing for another 2-3 hours and watch that new anime as reward. That didn't happen and I feel bad for it but at the same time, I'm like "meh, who cares??" The problem is I do care. I care too much.