[9:13pm] Yukhei smiled as you ran around admiring the snow. This is the person I will love forever, he thought to himself. You turn and look at him with the biggest smile and rosy cheeks.
[11:30pm] You sat on your couch cramming all your anatomy notes for you test in the morning. Frantically switching papers till a knock at the door. You quickly check the time, "Who could be here this late?" You said to yourself as you started to walk to the door.
A tall figure stood in your view. "Yukhei? What do you want, I don't have time." You said as you walked away back to your studies. "What I can't check in on my girlfriend?"
[2:07am] He and I are amazing cuddlers but, we don't have each other to embrace the love we look for.
The comfort and security we’ve always longed for. But sadly that will never be, we will never feel the warmth of each others chests as they rise and fall in unison. To hear the song that comes from each others hearts that beat for one another.
All we can do is lay there with the comfort of a blanket, only to imagine the blanket to be their arms.
(A/n: This does describe what a panic attack feels like so if you get triggered by these types of descriptions please do not read it. I am writing this because this is how the past couple of weeks have been for me so I thought writing it out would help me calm down.)
The loud sounds of roaring fans screaming your name circled around your head. The crowd lit up with green (nct) and yellow (yours) light sticks.
You felt joy overwhelm your body making you unable to stop smiling, until a weird feeling arrived in your body. A pit in your stomach started to form and cramp up your body. At the same time you felt you chest get tighter, making it harder to breathe.
Trying to keep your effortless smile on your face, you knew what was happening. Waving with your left hand as the other slowly wraps around your stomach.
“Are you okay?”
You jump; a little startled due you your anxiety already at max level.
Quickly turning your head in the direction of the voice.
Yukhei was looking down at you.
“I-I um… I f-fine”
You finally stuttered out.
He tilted his head like a confused puppy.
Looking up at him with a fake cheesy smile, you move your hand away from your stomach.
With that he shrugged his shoulders and went back to looking at the audience.
Not even a minute goes by and you felt it getting worse. It was getting harder and harder to breathe, you clench your chest to try and calm yourself (It's not working). You started to feel dizzy and almost lose your balance.
Out of the corner of Yukhei's eye he sees you stumble and quickly grabs you.
“Y/n!”
“I-I, I can't breath.” You say going into more of a panic.
Soon the boys came over and surrounded you to see what was going on.
But it didn't help, it made you more scared.
You started to shake visibly, your chest tightened more and more by the second.
“I'm taking her off the stage”
Yukhei said as he tenderly grabbed your arm and waist for support.
Once you were off stage you were ready to run, but couldn't, ready to take in that deep breath, but struggled. All you could do was hyperventilate, more staff surrounded you causing you breathe faster. You felt your cheeks become damp.
You were crying.
“Give her some space.” Yukhei said in a more worried tone.
With that, they slowly backed away. A medic came over to check on you but, his slight touch scared you and made you cry more.
You were starting to feel light headed, and slowly moved to the ground.
From all the things going on in your head, you tried to remember how to calm yourself. Put one had above and below your stomach, try and take slow breaths, close your eyes.
It's not working. You quickly sit up and start to shake more.
“Can I touch you?”
You turn and see Yukhei sitting next to you.
Hesitantly you nodded your head slightly.
Slowly he helped you up and moved you to a couch.
He sat you down and then moved next to you.
You started to claw the couch still full of fear as more tears stained your face.
He slowly wrapped his arms around you, trying to not scare you anymore.
He could feel how fast you were breathing, how fast your heart beat was, and how much you were shaking. He slowed down his breathing pattern for you to try and follow; whispering to you:
“It's going to be okay, don't worry.”
He slowly tightened his embrace.
“Don't worry, I'm here. It's going to be okay”
Slowly your breathing started to settle, tears still fell and you wrapped your arms around him. Slowly you started to calm down, laying your head on his chest. Feeling it rise and then fall, causing you to fall asleep.
Yukhei looked down to see your now peaceful appearance.
“It's going to be okay.” He said one last time kissing the top of your head.
(A/n: I wanted to make it cute at the end. But some of the things I said are actual ways to try and calm down if you are feeling overwhelmed and think you are close to having or are in the middle of an anxiety/panic attack. I'll explain again:
If you are alone and you are experiencing a panic attack:
Lay on you back and place one hand above and below your stomach or centered (this is to feel it rise and lower, causing your attention to focus on one thing) the breath in 4 seconds, hold for 7 seconds, let out in 4 seconds. Do it till you feel more calm.
Okay on to if someone else is having a anxiety/panic attack:
Do not approach them abruptly, that can make them more anxious, slowly approach them.
Do not touch them without permission, this can also freak them out. Ask them if you can if they say no, try directing them though the steps from the previous directions. If yes, then proceed, slowly wrap your arms around them (this can give them a feeling of security) change your breathing pattern, this can help them figure out how they are supposed to be breathing. Whisper things of reassuring thoughts like: “It's going to be okay, you are going to be okay.” This could make them feel more at ease, since they are worried about something or overwhelmed. Keep doing that till they show signs of regular breathing patterns.
I personally deal with anxiety and it can get very scary when you are in this type of situation. So just know that you can overcome this, these types of attacks normally happen due to a lot of stress, so please, take breaks when you are feeling fatigued, stressed, and or worried.
I wanted to request an imagine where Yukhei and Y/N are both idols and foreigners. Maybe they comfort each other over homesickness when their group members go home for a Korean holiday and are left alone in the dorms. Btw I think your writing is amazing I love reading it
(A/n: Thank you very much love! I made a couple of changes to the request, but I hope you like it!)
(Word count: 1,355)
The sound of chatter surrounded you and your group of friends as you were saying your goodbyes.
“Hope you guys have fun!” You say with a big smile.
“I wish we could come with us!” One of your friends says.
“Me too, but I have to stay.” you say with a sad but, reassuring look.
“Now boarding flight 232”
“Time to go.”
You give each of your friends a hug and wish them a safe flight, and they started to walk to their terminal. While you were walking back to your car, it was just you and a tall man next to you in the hallway. Feeling a bit social you tried to start a conversation.
“Did you also drop people off here?”
Not really expecting a conversation he looked over at you.
“I’m sorry what?” he said
“Did you drop anyone off here?”
“Oh yeah, couple of my friends. You?”
“Yeah, dropped of all the girls from y/g/n.”
He quickly turns to look at you again. “Wait, are you y/n!” he said in excitement.
“Mhm.” You hum to him and look up at him with a smile on your face.
“I love your music, I’m actually an artist too.”
“Thank you, and really.” You look at him hoping he was going to talk about it more.
“Yeah, actually the friends I dropped off were from NCT.”
You quickly look back at him and tenderly grab his arm as he removes his mask. “Oh my gosh, you’re Lucas from NCT!” Once you said that, his full smile was formed on his face. “So you know about me too, that’s good.” he chuckled.
You giggle and then he asks why you aren’t joining your friends.
“I couldn’t go.” you say shrugging your shoulders.
“Why’s that?”
“I don’t have my holiday yet. And they were going to visit their families.”
“Why aren’t you going with your friends?” You ask.
“The same as you.”
“Oh right because you are from Hong Kong, right?”
“Yep and I’m assuming you are also not from here.”
“You’re right, do you know where?” You look at him in curiosity
“Hm,” he paused for a long time. “I actually don’t.” He said surprised “Where are you from?”
“I’m from America, since my group is relatively new, I’m not asked questions surrounding my origins.” You say patting the sides of your legs.
You finally get to the parking lot of the airport and get to the cross walk.
“Well it was very nice to meet you Lucas.” You say with your small smile. “It was also very nice to meet you too Y/n and you can call Yukhei.”
“Okay, Yukhei hopefully I’ll see you around and maybe sometime we could hang out.” You say.
“Yeah! That would be cool. Here, why don’t I get your number so we can try and plan something.” He says pulling out his phone from his back pocket.
“I like that idea!” You say giggling, once you both had each others numbers, you wave to him and started to walk to your car.
The very next day you guys went to the little café on the corner by your apartment.
“Did your friends have a nice flight?” He asked as you both stood in line to order.
“Majority of them did, but one of them told me how the person behind her stuck their feet out and hit her elbow.” You said laughing
“That’s funny” he said chuckling along with you.
“How were your friends?” You ask
“They told me that their flight was good, but I do remember Mark telling me that he fell getting out of the plane.” He started to laugh shaking his head.
“Aw, I wish I could have saw that.” You say laughing too
“Me too.”
You both order your drinks and small cakes.
You walk over to a table for two and place the little dishes down.
You ordered the usual, an iced matcha tea and a tiramisu. Yukhei ordered a hot chocolate and vanilla cake.
As the two of you were eating, you would tell each other stories of what you would do when you were younger.
After a couple of stories Yukhei saw you looking down at your drink, stirring the almost nonexistent liquid. “Do you miss it?” He asked calmly.
You look up at him and smile, stretching out your arms. “I do sometimes. I wonder how my old friends are doing, how my family is.”
You pause.
“But, I know that when I get to visit, I’ll miss it here.” You say looking around. “Korea has become my second home. I may not have been living here long but, I’m already attached.”
Once you were done talking you look back at him and smile. “Do you miss Hong Kong?”
“Well of course.” He said “But the way you described everything just now can speak for the both of us.” He said smiling back at you.
When you both finished eating, you cleaned up the table and walked to the door. The wind blew and you quickly wrapped your thin jacket around yourself.
“Cold?” He looked down at you.
You giggled before you spoke “A little.” You said smiling at him.
“Here.” He took off his jacket and handed it to you.
“Won’t you be cold?” you said moving it slightly back towards him.“I’ll be fine.” he said fluffing his hoodie “I have this.”
“Thank you.” You wrap the jacket around yourself ‘warm’ you hum to yourself.
Cherry blossoms fell above as you started walking on a bridge, looking over the rail, your reflection stared back smiling. You look over to your right to see Yukhei looking down with you.
“This reminds me of a place back home.” you say directing your attention back to your reflection.
“I would go to this one pond that had a bridge over the small canal and would always look over the edge so I could see the water.”
Yukhei started to look more in your direction.
“I always loved to see the water trickle down the bridge and hit the water to then create water rings.” You look to the end of the bridge and watch the water slowly fall.
“Is this making you homesick?” He asked no longer looking at your reflection, and now looking at your profile.
“A little but, it’s getting better.” You look at him, still on your tippy toes to lean on the rail.
You push off the rail and start walking down the bridge and he follows.
“So where are we going now?” He asked once you get to the cross walk. “Um… I really don’t know.” You say looking up at him.
“It’s actually getting pretty late and it looks like it’s about to rain, why don’t we call it a day?”
“Okay”
“Here let me walk you home.”
The feeling of a light mist would hit your soft skin causing it to tighten. Clicking of two pairs of shoes were the only things heard on the wet pavement. The reflection of bright lights getting distorted with every step, only a block away from your dorm.
You break the silence.
“Thank you.”
“For what?” He said looking down at you.
“Well, you helped me get over my homesickness.”
“I did, how?”
“I got to relive memories from when I was younger. It feels like, like we grew up together.”
You get to the door of your dorm.
“So I wanted to say thank you for making me feel like I’m home.” You say smiling at him.
“Well, you are welcome.” He said tilting his head forward.
“And thank you.”
“For what?”
“I’m also no longer homesick.”
“Oh well you are very welcome.” You look up and giggle with him.
“Oops, I need to give you your jacket.” you say and start to take it off.
“It’s fine, you can keep it.”
“What, oh no I can’t.”
“No really keep it, maybe it can help you when you feel homesick.” After that you put the jacket back on and waved goodbye.
First, I want to state that I really appreciate the time you put into writing these stories! And can I request a story with Lucas meeting his long lost childhood friend (girl) that he had/still has feelings for. Fluff probably. Thank you so much! 💕
(A/N: Thank you! And I really wanted to write something like this! Also it’s really long… I’m sorry about that. But I hope you enjoy!)
Word Count: 2,148
“Oh my god, I’m going to be so late!” You say running down the sidewalk shoving your binder into you bag.
Cold raindrops hit the top of your head as you finally enter the building.
“Why are you so late and why are you wet?” A man said looking at you crossing his arms with a stern yet peaceful look.
“I-I, I-I, oh my gosh,” you say out of breath swaying your body forward with your hands on you knees to help you catch your breath.
“I’m sorry I- I didn’t know where I was going.” You finally say.
“Okay that explains why you’re late but, that doesn’t explain why you’re wet.”
You look down at yourself and see that you are soaked from the rain.
“Oh my.” You say lifting your arms to look at yourself more, “I didn’t have time to grab my umbrella so I got wet in the rain.” You ring out your cardigan and what it would seem like a full glass of water hits the floor. You look up and give a cheesy smile.
“Oh my god, okay come on let’s go get you some dry clothes.”
You were following the tall man to a studio.
“This will be your studio/dressing room, if you need anything just call the staff. I’ll be back with dry clothes.” He said and left you at the door to your room.
A little scared to open the door. Hesitantly you reached for the handle. Once you open the door, you see a large window. Walking to the edge of the window you see the cloudy skies over Cheongdam-dong.
You walk to the computer and connect your phone to the speakers so you could play music. As the music started the rain and the calm music harmonised. You placed your bag on the couch next to the window, then took off your cardigan and draped it on a bar in front of a mirror. Looking around the room, boxes of your stuff from your old studio were stacked on top of a golden trimmed bench.
“Oh here we go.” You say walking toward the stack of boxes.
Standing behind the door with a box in your hands, the door swung open knocking you down to the floor.
“Ah!”
Some of your stuff goes flying around the room and the person quickly goes to help you up.
“Oh my god! I’m so sorry, I didn’t see you!” A deep tone said, as he reaches out to grab your arm.
“Don’t worry I shouldn’t have been in front of the door.” Grabbing the guys hand and pulling yourself up. You try to dust yourself off but, didn’t end up working because your clothes were still damp. You quickly grab your necklace to check if it was still there.
“Okay good.” You say with a sigh of relief.
“Here.” The tall man said shoving a big hoodie and basketball shorts in front of your face.
“Oh thank you” you grab the hoodie and shorts and before you could say anything else he left the room.
You place the hoodie and shorts on the couch. Looking at the clothes you realise the shorts would be too big. Going to your bag you found what you were looking for.
“Here they are.” Pulling out an extra pair of black leggings. You walk over to the closed off side of the studio to change your pants. Luckily your tank didn’t get wet so you walk back to the couch to grab the hoodie. Once you put it on you look in the mirror and start to laugh.
“Why is this so big?” You were practically swimming in the soft brown colored hoodie. When you were done laughing at the abnormally sized hoodie, you pull your necklace out and went back to pick up the stuff that fell out of the box.
(Pov change):
“No way it can’t be”
Putting his hands of the top of his head as he started to question.
“It can’t be her. Why am I like this?”
“Lucas!”
His head abruptly rises to see who was calling his name.
“Woah dude, are you alright?” His friend asked him with a smirk and small chuckle.
“Yeah, I’m fine. What do you need Mark?” He said still a little distracted.
“Well, Doyoung wanted to know if you gave the new girl, what was her name… Oh right! Y/n. Did you give Y/n your clothes?”
“I did, don’t worry.” He said now rubbing the back of his neck.
“Are you sure you’re alright, you look like you saw a ghost.” Mark said now laughing a little more.
Before he speaks he sighs and looks at the ground, “It feels like I saw a ghost.”
“Wait, what do you mean?” Showing a little more concern toward Lucas.
“Well, it’s just,” struggling to even say the words, he leans to rest his back on the wall.
“It’s just…” Mark says motioning his hands to have him continue.
“It’s just I saw someone that I thought I would never see again.”
“Really, who?” “The new girl…” He said looking in the direction of your studio.
“Really!” Mark said loudly in shock.
“But, I thought Y/n came from America.” Mark then said.
“She did.” He said looking back at Mark.
“Then how could you know her?”
“Before she lived in America, Y/n lived in Hong Kong and she was my neighbor.”
He paused and started to fiddle with his hands, then he continued.
“When they moved in, our parents became close. Around three weeks later we invited them over for dinner and they brought Y/n, soon we became really good friends.”
“She and I would hang out everyday, before school, during, after, we were inseparable.” Looking down, a smile started to develop on his face.
“But” Mark said
“But then she had to move, her dad ended up getting a job in America. I still remember the day we found out.” His smile slowly started to fade away.“We were told after school and when I looked at her she just sat there.” (flashback)
“A little after we were told the news, we went to the park and sat on the swings. She wouldn’t stop looking at me, so I asked her if there was anything on my face. And she looked at me and said
‘No’
‘Then what is it?’
‘I just want to remember your face, all the little details that I always loved.’
You looked at all his features but, his soft brown eyes were what you looked at the most.
(end of flashback)
He sighed, “On that day I realised that I had feelings for her but, the thing is I alway knew, I was just to scared to tell her. I was going to tell her how I felt at that moment, but we had to leave so she could start packing.”
“Then when she was leaving for the airport, she looked excited and I didn’t want to ruin anything so I didn’t say anything. We kept in contact for a couple of months but, then we, we just stopped talking.” Putting his hands in and out of his pockets
“How old were you guys?” Mark asked
“I was 15 and she was 14.”
“But I still can’t believe this.” His smile returning.
“What?” Mark asked curiously.
“She is still wearing the necklace I gave her the day she left.” He said grabbing his chain around his neck and smiling at it.
“We both have.”
“Well what are you going to do?” Mark asked
“I don’t know.”
“Well didn’t you just see her?”
“I accidentally hit her with the door and then bolted out when I gave her the clothes…” He in a much faster and softer tone.
Mark smacks his forehead. “Really dude.”
Lucas nods his head. “What should I do?”
“I don’t know, get her her favorite food maybe, or flowers as a congratulations gift. Then you can see if she will recognize you.” Mark said shrugging his shoulders.
“Okay, I’ll do that. Thanks!” Lucas said and started to run out of the building to get your favorite food.
(Your pov):
“Finally!” You say when you emptied the last box. You sat at your desk and looked out your window again, closing your eyes to hear the rain drum off the window. With your eyes still closed you grab your necklace again. “I still miss you, I hope you know that.” Soon after there was a knock at your door. You get up to open the door to see the same tall figure from before, now covering his face with a mask and a take out bag.
“Hello” You say with a smile.
“Hi” he said still hiding behind the bag. “Here, a congratulations gift ” he said shoving the food in front of your face.
You take the bag from him and walk to place it on the desk.
“From what it looks like you bought a lot of food, would care to join me to celebrate?” You turn back around to look at him, to then see he was looking around your studio. You do a small smile and shake your head. ‘I’m taking that as a yes’ you say to yourself.
Soon you started to take everything out of the bag and when you were about to open one of the boxes, you noticed the man was looking at something, you slightly lean back to see what he was looking at and it was a picture, a picture of you and Yukhei.
“I see you’ve noticed my decor.” You say as you continue setting the table. “The picture you are looking at is of my friend and I, when I left for America.”
“Beautiful necklace you are wearing in this picture.” He said still looking at the picture.
You pause
“He gave me this necklace that day, and I wear it everyday to remind me that he is still [hopefully] supporting me. I gave him one also, a gold chain.”
You pause again now putting weight on your right hand to lean on the table, and the other fiddling with your necklace. “I hope he still wears it.”
You shake your head to try and not think of him. “Okay let’s see what you got for us to eat shall we.”
You open the box and gasp loudly and practically scream.
The man turns quickly.
“Are you okay?”
“Yes, I’m okay. It’s just these are my favorite foods, and I haven’t had these since I left Hong Kong.” You say bursting with joy.
You turn to him with your full smile and look into his eyes.
“My question is, how did you know these were my favorite?” You say still looking into his eyes.
“I uh, guessed.” He said rubbing the back of his neck.
“Really, okay. Well let’s eat then.” You turn away from him to sit down and he moves to sit in front of you.
Hesitantly he starts to take off his mask, once he finally does you start to offer him food. At first it was very clear he was expecting a different response, but still continued.
There was very little conversation between you two, the only sound that was present was the echo of the rain bouncing off the windows and the calm music from before.
When you both were finished eating, you got up to look out the window. “It’s funny, I always hated it when it rained but when I was little, I always told myself that the person I loved would help me love the rain. When I met him I truly started to love the rain but, once I left my disliking of rain came back. But this is the funny part.”
You pause
And Yukhei looks up at you.
“My love for the rain has come back.” You say and turn to look at Yukhei.
He stands and starts to walk over to you.
You could feel your eyes start to burn and your cheeks get wet as you started to cry.
“I’ve missed you so much Yukhei.” You say as you run into his arms.
Holding onto you tight he whispered, “I thought you didn’t recognise me.”
“How could I not recognise my favorite detail about you.” You say looking into his soft brown eyes.
“I’ve been waiting so long to tell you this.”
He said breaking the hug, wiping your tears he looks into your eyes.
“I love you Y/n, I have loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you.”
And with that he leaned in a gave you a kiss.
You break the kiss and admire is soft brown eyes, “And I have loved you since I first laid eyes on you.”
You both giggle at the cheesy words to end with another kiss.
(A/n: I’m sorry that I made it really long, but again I hope you enjoyed it!)
hi it's me again😂 can i please have a lucas request where his girlfriend is feeling really sick and he has a scheduled v live that he can not miss so his girlfriend sits next to him the entire duration of live and cuddles him and every now and then he whispers to her to ask if she is okay and gives her a kiss because she finds it comforting and the fans react because they have never seen lucas that calm before. sorry if this was messy thank youuuu xx
(A/n: This works perfectly because I’ve been sick for a little while. I’m probably going to go off of my experience so far and in the end I might’ve rambled a bit but, it’s cute and it’s 1 am right now. So I hope you enjoy!)
(It’s also very short word count: 390)
It was around 6 o’clock at night and Yukhei had a scheduled vlive to do in 15 minutes. He decided to come over to your place because you told him you weren’t feeling well and be wanted to take care of you.
He was sitting on the couch setting up the camera and starting the live.
“Okay here we go man!” He said in excitement. “Let’s just wait for more people before I start.” As soon as he said that you walk in, with a blanket wrapped around you to make you look like E.T. Yukhei watched you as you stumbled to the kitchen to get water, with sniffles leading your path.
“One second,” yukhei said to the camera as he got up from the couch to direct you out of the kitchen. Without questioning why he moved you, you stood there in pain. Yukhei came back with a hot cup of tea and moved you to the couch so you could sit with him while he was live.
Trying to make you as comfortable as possible he spent nearly 5 minutes, setting up pillows and extra blankets for you to lay on and cuddle with. Once he was finished, he sat down and pulled you to sit next to him. Tenderly, he laid your head on his lap to make you even more comfortable.
During the duration of the live, he would look down at you and ask you how you were doing or if you needed anything. You would look up at him with a reassuring smile and put your hand on his cheek telling him that you were fine and what he was already doing helped enough. He would lean down and kiss your temples to help with your headache, rubbing your back to sooth the pain, and play with your hair to make you fall asleep.
The fans were a little taken back by this new nature Yukhei was showing, he wasn’t as hyper as he normally is in the lives with everyone else. He was more, calm.
The fans didn’t really know how to respond to his new actions but, he didn’t care. All he cared about was you. Looking down at you again to see you sleeping gracefully on his legs, holding onto his hand as the other still plays with you hair.
