Hey, Misty! I've been meaning to send you a message for a while, but I just wanted to say that the Surreal Darkness series is one of my favorite things to see on my dash. It's such a visceral, well-written commentary on depression, or at least that's how I interpret it (as someone who's struggled with depression for many years). I love the slight horror vibe it has too. Keep up the great work! You're an amazing storyteller.
Oh my gosh, oh my gosh!!! Thank you!! :)
Putting a readmore because this gets real personal and overshare-y, lol.
I've heard that before, about it being about depression. That's interesting to me. I'm not sure if I was depressed but I definitely was traumatized, and going through that in my 20s and early 30s. Actually I think the time when I was writing Surreal Darkness was around when I really started to heal. The bits posting right now are based in my experience of nearly bleeding to death from a hemorrhaging ulcer in 2011, and I think recovering from that was the beginning of healing, writing SD and Emo Pistols was the next part, getting meds was next, and then just...getting older and wiser.
I'm on escitalopram now and it's really really helped an amazing lot too. So yeah, between meds, my writing, and getting older I'm doing pretty good these days.
Maybe when it's done being reblogged I'll write some new bits. It's harder for me to write these days because my job is busier now so I'm more stressed and tired when I get home than I used to be, and also my husband has been obsessed with Korean dramas since 2019 so I watch two episodes a night with him, which means less writing time. Maybe I could work out a system to get back to it though. We'll see.
Speaking of Korean dramas, one we watched recently had a concept of a Flame Reaper, a Grim Reaper who only collects the spirits of those who died from fire. Could definitely write something in Sims about that. :)
Anyway, I'm worried about how I'm coming off here and oversharing too much so I'll stop, but I just wanted to say:
I really really really truly appreciate this message, very much a lot. Thank you, really and deeply from my heart. I hope you're doing better now too. And also I love your Sims and your posts and I'm very glad I found you on here. Thank you for being on my dash. :)
Also I want to tell anyone reading this who may be going through it right now that you can heal, you can get better, and staying alive to see that day is worth it. I promise. I know what I'm talking about. ;) And if you need medicine as part of reaching that day, there's no shame in that. There's no shame in any of it, really.
You are all of infinite worth and beauty no matter where you are in your journey through being alive, and if it helps you get through it you can think "Hey, that stranger on the internet said that she would always love me and that I am beautiful and good and full of worth, so there, you silly brain!" Because it's true, I will and you are, all of you.
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AMA, you say? Here's one: what initially got you into the Sims franchise, and which game did you start with?
(Also, I hope you feel better soon!)
Hi, thanks for the ask (and the well wishes!)! This is a fun question!!
So, I actually got into the franchise when I was about 13 (so in 2017), through my best friend at the time. She had the game on her laptop and we would play when I went over to her house. We made sims of each other and had them live together. After my parents found out about how much we played, I ended up getting the base game and Cats & Dogs for Christmas that year.
(Side note: The first sim I ever played on my own had twins (both girls), and I thought the game glitched and didn't save the name, so I named them both the same thing. This was pretty confusing, at least up until they became teens and one of them died in a grill fire. A lot of my early sims died in grill fires, actually. One dude was living on his own and refused to put himself out, so that was the first (and maybe only??) time I ever got the "game over" screen.)
It didn't take too long for me to fall into the world of cc and mods, and I ended up joining tumblr and simblr in the fall of 2018. (Wild to think I've been here for over 6 years.) By that point I had more or less completely fallen out with the friend who introduced me to the game, but my love for the Sims remained.
In 2019 I bought a gaming laptop (an Acer Nitro 5, which is still my current computer) for sims reasons, and also in anticipation of Planet Zoo, which was coming out that fall. Making my own posts on simblr started not long after that, but I didn't start using this blog until 2021.
I haven't actually done gameplay in years, but I'm pretty attached to the game still, if only as a way to visualize my OCs and create edits.
There! A lot more of an answer than you asked for, but I'm a rambler, so I'm not sure what you expected, hahaha. Thanks again for the ask and the well wishes! I hope you have a great day. 💖💖