When I first discovered Youtube, I would only used it to watch Necroscope86 play Resident Evil, and he’s been a huge staple in my childhood.
He was the kind of person who was pretty genuine with how he feels and his own opinions on certain matters. Cared about the thought and input he had in each of his Let’s Plays and I always enjoyed his commentary while doing my homework or drawing.
He, like myself, had depression, and was constantly struggling to deal with a lot in his life. So much so that I always wished the best for him, and being a single father who cared a lot for his daughter, I rooted even harder for things to go well for him.
From 2008, I was a big fan of his, and looked forward to hearing from him or at least rewatching a series he played on his channel.
Today, as of 2020, I went to revist his channel once more because I missed watching his Let’s Plays. I wanted to watch his Breath of Fire 3 Let’s Play (which was a game we both share a genuine love for as it played a part in our childhood), but it was then I noticed he wasn’t on my subscription list anymore.
His channel was gone.
I had known he had decided to leave Youtube around 2017, due to personal reasons involving wanting to get his life on track and focusing the important things around him. That much I understood.
But I did not think he would delete his channel.
Looking further into the matter, I saw information involving his reasonings behind the deletion of his channel. He wanted to permanently ensure that he would be focusing on his life, family, and close ones, That he didn’t want to have to come back to Youtube, knowing how much of it sucked part of his life or had anchored him to it.
He had quit and took long hiatus before his true departure from Youtube in the past. But had come back when he felt he thought he was ready to handle being a Let’s Player again.
And while I was sad to never be able to revisit parts of my childhood memories with this special man, I wholeheartingly support his decision in doing this.
I really hope he’s doing alright, wherever he is, and that he’s doing well for himself and his family.
Without him ever appearing on that fateful year of 2008, I would have been in a really dark place in my life.
