I'm sorry I've been so awol lately.
I have been hiding away in a mental blanket burrito and generally avoiding interacting with Real Life as much as possible. I've been existing in a eat-sleep-puppy care-family drama bubble and even though I know it's not good for my headspace I've been retreating more and more from everything else because fam business has been sucking up all my energy and I just feel like a vortex of stress and snappishness and negativity that shouldn't be allowed within ten feet of The Outside World lest I suck all the joy out of the people around me. You know, the usual super logical depression stuff.
I've been slowly trying to drag myself out of that this week, though, and I see my therapist tomorrow which I know will be a big help. She always is. Just knowing that she is going to tell me to take a step back from family goings on and stop trying to fix it all has helped me start moving in the right direction. She is going to kick my butt and remind me that isolating myself and fixating only ever leads to more bad, and that's exactly the kick in the pants I need right now.
Extricating myself from my own head when I get this far down the rabbit hole of crazy is always a bit of a process, but the beautiful sunshine we've had all week plus some tough self love and the therapeutic effect of a good haircut has me on the right track. I will be around this weekend for sure, and will start working on getting caught up on all the things I have been letting slide.
Thank you for being patient with my crazy tendency to hibernate when life gets stressful. I am basically the worst at keeping in touch and being a good friend and I'm sorry, it is something I'm trying to work on.












