#need venting

[brazenbutterflyfragilewings]

And when you think you're getting somewhere life throws another giant NOPE in your face

[skysailing-mu]

I'm feeling so low right now. Just screwed over the easiest exam university can throw at you. There goes a simple B.

[liveupbeat]

Fuck it

I just don't care anymore Why do i even try if your just gonna be a dick So fuck off I don't care do you not get that Just get the fuck away I can't understand how you think I still even give a shit anymore You treat me like that It won't make me feel better I just don't care... Can you just stay out of my life And I'll do the same for you You've been doing that Idk why all of a sudden you have Some interest in my life Wow kinda took you a while

[takemeawaylovexoxo]

I feel like I can't even talk about my problems on here bc some of my friends follow me and I just can't deal with that.

[aerdiosity]

Unfold

(So if you don't want to read my vent, just skip this post because I just need to let this all out.) I'm finally going to let it all go, whatever we ever shared, these worthless memories and talks. I am certain that I no longer give a flying fuck about anything dealing with you. Oh and if you are wondering who I am pointing this out to, I hope you know whoever reading this, that it was just an ex-close friend/ "brother" that I happened to be sort of close with at times. Well if you want details, I just knew him for a long time maybe since 8th grade? IDFK. Back to my overall thesis (lol), i am happy that I have friends who support me and a loving boyfriend who still loves me even after that "incident". If it was not for them, I would probably be dead by now in all honesty. I felt so betrayed and I felt like a toy basically. I felt so ashamed.. I was so vulnerable and all I ASKED was just for advice. I never intended it to become what has. And a couple of my friends always ask, "Will you ever befriend him again? What do you think he has to do?"  Okay. To answer this, I just don't give a fuck about him and his life anymore. He is absolutely nothing. I WILL NEVER, EVER, EVER TRUST HIM THE WAY I DID BEFORE. I know I sound harsh but I know you don't know what has happened. It was a very unpredictable thing for a person he is "known" to be, and in awe, I was shocked as well. I never knew a person that I knew for so long, would do that to me and sexually assault me.  I don't know how I would forgive someone who would sexually assault a close friend of mine..A miracle would have to happen..but you know, actions speak louder than words. And he's pretty full of BS. So if yall (lol) know who this may be, be careful.