I am so sick and tired of my life. Get up, go to work, come home, sit around until dinner, have dinner, go to bed...and start all over. I’m sick of my job (though grateful I have one at all), but it’s not even in my field so it’s not what I want to be doing. And my weekends aren’t much different: wake up, sit on the couch, eat, watch tv, sit on the couch more, maybe work out, and eventually go to bed. I don’t do anything. Ok sure maybe I’ll have dinner with a friend every once in a while. I wanna go out and do something, see something, learn something, go somewhere new, have adventures. Do things I’ll remember. But I hardly have any friends so that doesn’t help. When I was younger I did so much: I went to Haiti, I did some photography freelancing, I studied abroad in Ireland. Now....the most recent place I went was St. Louis for the weekend (that was 4 months ago). I’m so tired of this. I feel like I’m gonna miss out on life and the next thing I know I’ll be 50 and I’ll have done nothing memorable. Didn’t take any risks. I want to have adventures that I’ll remember for the rest of my life, that I’ll never regret. I don’t know what to do. I try to do things or invite people to do things but they’re either too busy or next thing I know they’ve gone without me. And I’m just left behind. Please tell me somebody is out there who understands.
